Time flies like a rocket, after months and days, finally, it's my 20th birthday.
It's hard to describe this feeling. Something inside you tells you that you've reached the next stage of the circle of life. Remember few years back, I was still wondering what life is like out there, behind the school gate, far away from the wall of my house, far far away from the line of my boundary, far beyond my knowledge and experience....
20 years - with all smiles and sadness, tears and memories, gatherings and partings... Some are unremarkable, some are unforgettable, jus like today ^^
Mommy didnt call me after all, but it doesnt matter, coz at least the two most important men in my life were beside me all the time: Dad and Hubby. I dont know should I love or hate him for bringing me up with such personalities. But anyway, thank you for calling me up and wish me a happy bday, there's always a place for you in my heart no matter how far we are, dad, hope you know this...
And Hubby, you were the one who make this date become history. Since 8, never did i receive present from anyone that truly deeply made me touched like the way it did today. I might not be the one and only in your life, but please do know that, to me, you'r the prince of my dream, the special exception that I can entrust and die for.
Apparently, i'm kiddish, impatient, bad-tempered, sickening, disappointing and hopeless in so many ways, that people usually tend to kick me away from their way. Somehow in my mind, i thought i was like a rusty music box, with the kind of noise that irritates anyone. How glad I was when you found me, you could never imagine it. And be treasured, be respected, be embraced in your love is the greatest gift from heaven that I cant ask for more....
I know you'r tired and low energy after work, and with a few personal reasons that keep you from hang out with me too often. Yet you kept telling me not too grumble, yet you were willing to spend time talking over about our dinner, carrying all those heavy stuff, walking around in that freezing supermarket picking groceries for our dinner - the dinner that you COOKED for me later. When I saw you preparing veggie, managed to flip the chicken inside the pan, and got upset when they'r not as good as you expected, I just wanted to hold you, very tight, and tell you that:
That's more than enough, hubby.. Even though it's not a perfect dinner, i'm happy when you're perfectly in love with me.
I'm really, really happy that i thought I couldnt hold my tears when I think back of the previous birthday I've had before. It was always a day after skool, i bought a small cake for myself, hopefully stepped inside the house wishing a warm family dinner waiting for me... and I lightened up the candle by myself, blew it quietly, and had dinner with the telly. It always ended up like dat, how I wished at least someone could have hugged me and tell me how much they love me.... like the way you do, hubby, the way you always do.....
Though it was short, though it was simple, I enjoyed it alot. With you keep saying that you love me, I believe we can make it. Always be little in confidence, I have no doubt this time what happen between us is a miracle, but it's up to us to grow it ... Not just the promise in 5 years time, i'm willing to spend my lifetime loving you.... no matter how hard it would be, how many troubles or misunderstanding we will encompass, I wont give up. For what you did tonight showed me the true love that I've been looking for a whole time.... =)
LOVE YOU, HUBBY!!!!xxxxxx
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