Such a quirky group they are!!!!!
Yeah, they are Jeremy, Aprille, Brandon and I hung up together last night~~~
At first, I was kinda reluctant whether to accept their invitation, then I felt so lucky I didnt refuse it. It's one of the funniest night ever after I joined Carousel. And it brought me a total different vibe with the Taiwanese group. There was no language barrier between us, no pretentious smile with thinking twice choice of words. We had freedom of speech to voice watever we wanted, and that made me feel really comfortable as if I could tell them anything. However, the main difference is that, after today's conversation, I believe we still can let this friendship grow up as we get along damn well. They really appreciated my innovative term for haft-dead/boring people = Jelly fish, unlike the Taiwanese group, as there was an intangible wall that keeps us apart from each other. I dont know why but to the Taiwanese group, I feel as if no matter how hard I try, I jus cant adjust myself to them. Conversely, I didnt need to be someone else to be with J, Ape and Brandon. That makes me want to understand them more and more as days gone by. Unlike the other group, the acquaintance feeling annoyingly remains so that I'm tired of trying to socialize in vain w them. People's perception is hard to change, and in this case, I gotta press Ctrl+W to little Mr.Wonder~~
What Ape said about him was right, he's interesting in a right way, he's reliable and responsible for what he does. That was what attracted me, and becoz he's such a nice guy, and they have good chemical together, I feel miserable as being the third wheel and interrupt their kute-looking love story. So alright, I give up my fast-pace fantasy, 1 month is really not long enough to understand a person, let alone having a crush on him. It's just infatuation that blurred me from the start and brought me away from what I was concentrating on. Now I'm back on track and ready to go. I'm not gonna put my nose on others business anymore as they found me irritating. I dont need to told straight at the face about my silly bubble love, I know my limit and I know when to stop. Everything has its own time, I got time for you and it already passed. Now it's you who will pick up wat i had left and god bless you that You wont regret how mean you had treated my heart, W. happy ending with the one you chose...
Gone baby blue, I like J, Ape and Brandon, talking with mature people make you actually grow up and learn a lot from their experience. I'm still on learning process. It's not people's job to judge you, it's yourself to learn and behave everyday. Thx Ape, J and Brandon!! I got lots of fun in NY NY and Starbucks!!!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
ONe moment, life sucks!!!!!!
STUCK_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ COmmander, Gpa, anyone there, bring me away, anywhere else but here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Good morning headache
A little too late for this post since it should have been done last night, but the sucking internet and my entirely tired body kept me from it. Yeah~~~, it's as tired as always, especially after you carried like 25 rounds of draught beer, countless times of juices, and certainly more than one each time. I learn that the balance act is deemed important for a butler (okay, waitress/ waiter) Imagine, when ur old good bro was bugging you with his annoying words, you lost your mind one second and Choang~~~~~ one goblet was gone. In fact, I dont need to pay for it despite the teasing face of duty manager repeating 25$ onwards, I still feet pretty guilty plus sorry about it, and it's killing me....
But think of the bright side, it showed me how much Hubby concerns about me. He reminded me not to get hurt by myself, isnt it sweet?!!!! And when I asked whether I should carry the container of dirty goblets and cups, he raised his voice voluntarily: "Let me do it!!". Ahhh, have i told you lately that I luve gentlemen!!!! But the sad part was when I confirmed with him about our relationship, he just showed no interest at all, as his words went along: We'd better be friends, as it makes me feel comfortable..Yeah~~~ I know it's human's nature, people are prone to avoid risk, they'r afraid of losing. We all want to do the easy way, so let it be, I dont mind adventuring once, but since it's your wish, guess I jus leave you time to think, and hopefully, to reconsider...
Another important event happened yesterday, it's the unison of the GM's relatives. They gathered together in the Stateroom, which surprised me at first by the unusual appearance of Shaffie, Ruben, Das and Raja - They're all in chef uniforms!!!! I let my mouth satisfied its amazement for a while, then was commanded to bring all the courses to the room. Four of us, Joyce, Elmo, Wilson and I lined up at the main kitchen, eagerly waiting for the dishes to be garnished by the staff and bring them up to serve those VIP guests. It's totally an experience. The way they retouched the food, like braised duck, soup and dessert was jus way too kool to be described!!!! Yet those stupid big pocket people didnt appreciate it, or in other words, didnt know how to treasure their gastronomy extravaganza. I feel sorry for them, hope somebody can teach them how to enjoy their life more than wasting their food and $$$ like that.
Lesson time: Once again, I let my temptation embarrass me. Last night, I was so exhausted and hungry after 10.30 something since the guests hadnt left. Not too far away, The dessert counters were so enticing. I made my guts to run over the ice cream bar and asked the auntie to take some chocolate and vanilla. Without hesitation and thinking twice (I should have!!!!) I ran all the way through Terrace to the back area behind V1. And by accident, I heard one of the guest whispering "Enjoy huh?!" I was stunned, but I kept walking briskly, as if I didnt catch it. When I was actually enjoying my ice cream, I thought about those words, and feel shameful of what I was doing. I feel I was such a filthy rat that stole somebody food and eat in horror.The ice cream that I had expected to be extremely yummie now melting like cold ice in my throat with not much impressive taste. I couldnt have done differently. I could have been more patient to wait at least until the guests all left (well, in this case, they all left after 11pm so I forgave myself about it very soon) But when Das and Balan discovered my little dirty secret, while both of them were eating right inside V1, I felt funny, and wanna laugh myself to death =)) We're all in the same boat, so what's there to worry about?! Jus go with the flow and life would be much easier, dont you think?
Anyway, my achievement yesterday was obvious: I did a great job of upselling for more than 20 fruit juice and almost 30 glasses of draught beer. That's why I deserved 5$ tips (why only 5$ and not even from the same group, but who the hell cares^"^). There was this guest who asked me if I were Korean, I smile pleasantly back to deny it, and he's so surprised. Well I guess all of my encounters found it surprising about the fact that I'm a Vietnamese, and that kinda makes me wonder if my origin is Vietnamese, not haft blood~~~~
But think of the bright side, it showed me how much Hubby concerns about me. He reminded me not to get hurt by myself, isnt it sweet?!!!! And when I asked whether I should carry the container of dirty goblets and cups, he raised his voice voluntarily: "Let me do it!!". Ahhh, have i told you lately that I luve gentlemen!!!! But the sad part was when I confirmed with him about our relationship, he just showed no interest at all, as his words went along: We'd better be friends, as it makes me feel comfortable..Yeah~~~ I know it's human's nature, people are prone to avoid risk, they'r afraid of losing. We all want to do the easy way, so let it be, I dont mind adventuring once, but since it's your wish, guess I jus leave you time to think, and hopefully, to reconsider...
Another important event happened yesterday, it's the unison of the GM's relatives. They gathered together in the Stateroom, which surprised me at first by the unusual appearance of Shaffie, Ruben, Das and Raja - They're all in chef uniforms!!!! I let my mouth satisfied its amazement for a while, then was commanded to bring all the courses to the room. Four of us, Joyce, Elmo, Wilson and I lined up at the main kitchen, eagerly waiting for the dishes to be garnished by the staff and bring them up to serve those VIP guests. It's totally an experience. The way they retouched the food, like braised duck, soup and dessert was jus way too kool to be described!!!! Yet those stupid big pocket people didnt appreciate it, or in other words, didnt know how to treasure their gastronomy extravaganza. I feel sorry for them, hope somebody can teach them how to enjoy their life more than wasting their food and $$$ like that.
Lesson time: Once again, I let my temptation embarrass me. Last night, I was so exhausted and hungry after 10.30 something since the guests hadnt left. Not too far away, The dessert counters were so enticing. I made my guts to run over the ice cream bar and asked the auntie to take some chocolate and vanilla. Without hesitation and thinking twice (I should have!!!!) I ran all the way through Terrace to the back area behind V1. And by accident, I heard one of the guest whispering "Enjoy huh?!" I was stunned, but I kept walking briskly, as if I didnt catch it. When I was actually enjoying my ice cream, I thought about those words, and feel shameful of what I was doing. I feel I was such a filthy rat that stole somebody food and eat in horror.The ice cream that I had expected to be extremely yummie now melting like cold ice in my throat with not much impressive taste. I couldnt have done differently. I could have been more patient to wait at least until the guests all left (well, in this case, they all left after 11pm so I forgave myself about it very soon) But when Das and Balan discovered my little dirty secret, while both of them were eating right inside V1, I felt funny, and wanna laugh myself to death =)) We're all in the same boat, so what's there to worry about?! Jus go with the flow and life would be much easier, dont you think?
Anyway, my achievement yesterday was obvious: I did a great job of upselling for more than 20 fruit juice and almost 30 glasses of draught beer. That's why I deserved 5$ tips (why only 5$ and not even from the same group, but who the hell cares^"^). There was this guest who asked me if I were Korean, I smile pleasantly back to deny it, and he's so surprised. Well I guess all of my encounters found it surprising about the fact that I'm a Vietnamese, and that kinda makes me wonder if my origin is Vietnamese, not haft blood~~~~
Thursday, November 26, 2009
And I've been thinking about you...
Ainsi, his name is W, but I'd like to call him Hubbie, dont know why I just instantly had a good impression of this guy that instinctively made me wanna call him wit that nick name. He's fine, with an average height, specs- worn face, looks like a geek but apparently a previous dancing assistant in college years (woohoo I like that fact). Kool attitude toward anything, good communication skill with native American accent (one of the feature that set him out of the rest). Crazed at Resident Evil and Alicia Keys, good looking and friendly, though a bit calculative, but who's not in this competitive battle field world? So overall, He has 8.5 out of 10 in my skale =)
It seems our relationship has become further and further now as we go along day by day. The last Tuesday was quite memorable, about his behaviours that brought to mind wat Louise told me before... One of the sign which shows if one person has affection on you is when he/she frequently touch you, unintentionally or on purpose. Well, I cant tell which one, but it's true that we had quite a number of physical contact on that very special day. Let see, the first one was in the morning shift. We were nearly working in the same station: I was in Terrace, while he's in charge of SP. So it's sorta we bumping into each other very often. And there were countless times that he stood unusually close to me, like right behind me, so close that I could almost feel his breathe (did I think too far, man T___T) The previous day, Monday, when he told me about he employee detail form, it's the first time he tapped his finger on my right shoulder, and that kinda tickled me, I dont know. I'm not used to any kind of physical affiliation. Seldom do I hug, kiss or hold my parents' hands,let alone do it to stranger. Sometimes feel as if i'm kinda cold-blooded or emotionless. Therefore, it gave me a strange feeling, like an electric shock when his fingers touch me, I didnt shiver, but it made me wonder, and I hate wondering about nonsense stuff outside of the area I'm focusing on. Then on Tuesday, when he asked me about the form before he left at 6.30, once again, as his hand grasped my shoulder, right shoulder again,coz he's a left-handed, I was stunned, but I just didnt show it. I was afraid it'd be infatuation again. I've been in this kind of puppy crush before that it scares me every time dèja vu happens.
I'm afraid I'd be the one who make up everything, afraid I'd thought too much about something not that big a deal.... By protecting myself against any kind of heart broken affair, I put the label of infatuation on anything happening between us from now on. I dont want to think too much about it now. There would be a time for it, but not now, now I gotta concentrate in my future path, which he appears as one of the fellow on the track. I told myself so many times, yet I still think about the incident... and I keep wondering..... I dont know, will I lose myself over this new guy? Will what bro David said about him- a playboy- be true? Then i'd be the only one who gets hurt in his game .... could it turn out to be the fact?....
let see
But his eyes really hook me~~~
It seems our relationship has become further and further now as we go along day by day. The last Tuesday was quite memorable, about his behaviours that brought to mind wat Louise told me before... One of the sign which shows if one person has affection on you is when he/she frequently touch you, unintentionally or on purpose. Well, I cant tell which one, but it's true that we had quite a number of physical contact on that very special day. Let see, the first one was in the morning shift. We were nearly working in the same station: I was in Terrace, while he's in charge of SP. So it's sorta we bumping into each other very often. And there were countless times that he stood unusually close to me, like right behind me, so close that I could almost feel his breathe (did I think too far, man T___T) The previous day, Monday, when he told me about he employee detail form, it's the first time he tapped his finger on my right shoulder, and that kinda tickled me, I dont know. I'm not used to any kind of physical affiliation. Seldom do I hug, kiss or hold my parents' hands,let alone do it to stranger. Sometimes feel as if i'm kinda cold-blooded or emotionless. Therefore, it gave me a strange feeling, like an electric shock when his fingers touch me, I didnt shiver, but it made me wonder, and I hate wondering about nonsense stuff outside of the area I'm focusing on. Then on Tuesday, when he asked me about the form before he left at 6.30, once again, as his hand grasped my shoulder, right shoulder again,coz he's a left-handed, I was stunned, but I just didnt show it. I was afraid it'd be infatuation again. I've been in this kind of puppy crush before that it scares me every time dèja vu happens.
I'm afraid I'd be the one who make up everything, afraid I'd thought too much about something not that big a deal.... By protecting myself against any kind of heart broken affair, I put the label of infatuation on anything happening between us from now on. I dont want to think too much about it now. There would be a time for it, but not now, now I gotta concentrate in my future path, which he appears as one of the fellow on the track. I told myself so many times, yet I still think about the incident... and I keep wondering..... I dont know, will I lose myself over this new guy? Will what bro David said about him- a playboy- be true? Then i'd be the only one who gets hurt in his game .... could it turn out to be the fact?....
let see
But his eyes really hook me~~~
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I know where to go when it feels like this
And it's right beside you....
Tired of being the black sheep (or the only swan among a herd of crows,i prefer positive image). Not gonna talk about the current situation and all that bullshit things happening around anymore, coz they'll never change, oh people's perception are always the same. Suddenly I had an urge to visit Him, and so I did. What would I do if I go home anyway... so many things on the checklist to do would have occupied my mind until bed time that I might not have time for myself should I'd come back. So I just gone with the flow...
And let my feet led me to his office...
In this well-lit, little room, I feel like home. THis is where I can truly be myself after all day long pretentiously acting as a pro. If I wanna laugh, tease, be silly, fuss around, cry, lay back, tilt my head, lean lazily anywhere... well, I wouldnt need to back off for a second to keep myself from doing what I want.. you know, that adult's world out there where everyone has to think of his face and everyone's interest before his own sake sickens me...
The fact that I dont have to watch my words, force myself smiling, let it off with those stupid fucking offensive behaviors at work, tolerate my sore fingers everytime I carry this and that and never have a supporting pat on my back... Here is my wonderland.. sometimes I wish I could be Peter Pan...
And practicing French with you is so much fun, while seeing how Chris correcting his students' assignment grammar and vocabulary so that they make sense is purely hilarious =)) I'm still concerning about your spine, but it lightened me up when everything seemed to be fine, or you're concealing it, I couldn't tell, but I love your smile and the way you look at me when you say petite Gabrielle. Those sweet words just take me away from the many hustle and bustle no-name troubles fell on my head mercilessly...
There was this group of students who brought some VN's traditional rice cake as a souvenir for you. Forget the watever taste and look that are irritating, I appreciate how you found me helpful as a translator =D. And that kinda reminded me of the time when I secretly put some snack on the lecturers' tables another day of mid autumn. I couldnt see how astonished you and the others were, but I could imagine how delightful you were when you knew it was me. And when I come back to see how nicely it was arranged next to your desk calendar, it made me smile....
Those little things can simply make me smile, no matter what's going on... no matter what hellish things might happen to me today or tomorrow....
How many man in the word can do that little thing as bringing a smile to the little girl by their side?.... You were the one, dear :)
Tired of being the black sheep (or the only swan among a herd of crows,i prefer positive image). Not gonna talk about the current situation and all that bullshit things happening around anymore, coz they'll never change, oh people's perception are always the same. Suddenly I had an urge to visit Him, and so I did. What would I do if I go home anyway... so many things on the checklist to do would have occupied my mind until bed time that I might not have time for myself should I'd come back. So I just gone with the flow...
And let my feet led me to his office...
In this well-lit, little room, I feel like home. THis is where I can truly be myself after all day long pretentiously acting as a pro. If I wanna laugh, tease, be silly, fuss around, cry, lay back, tilt my head, lean lazily anywhere... well, I wouldnt need to back off for a second to keep myself from doing what I want.. you know, that adult's world out there where everyone has to think of his face and everyone's interest before his own sake sickens me...
The fact that I dont have to watch my words, force myself smiling, let it off with those stupid fucking offensive behaviors at work, tolerate my sore fingers everytime I carry this and that and never have a supporting pat on my back... Here is my wonderland.. sometimes I wish I could be Peter Pan...
And practicing French with you is so much fun, while seeing how Chris correcting his students' assignment grammar and vocabulary so that they make sense is purely hilarious =)) I'm still concerning about your spine, but it lightened me up when everything seemed to be fine, or you're concealing it, I couldn't tell, but I love your smile and the way you look at me when you say petite Gabrielle. Those sweet words just take me away from the many hustle and bustle no-name troubles fell on my head mercilessly...
There was this group of students who brought some VN's traditional rice cake as a souvenir for you. Forget the watever taste and look that are irritating, I appreciate how you found me helpful as a translator =D. And that kinda reminded me of the time when I secretly put some snack on the lecturers' tables another day of mid autumn. I couldnt see how astonished you and the others were, but I could imagine how delightful you were when you knew it was me. And when I come back to see how nicely it was arranged next to your desk calendar, it made me smile....
Those little things can simply make me smile, no matter what's going on... no matter what hellish things might happen to me today or tomorrow....
How many man in the word can do that little thing as bringing a smile to the little girl by their side?.... You were the one, dear :)
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Yesterday was somewhat special
Talk about the 18th of Nov - The first time I got out of the crazy merry-go-round during lunch time, for which was made up by today's mad rush of 257 more than 100% full house, yeah, and I had "good time" with David, he kept moaning "Give up lah~~~" Dear mr.Smart, as if working with me was kinda his bad luck , like "unfortunately I worked w u today, wat a headache ~~~ " I dont give him a damn, knowing that he got more exp and ran more than me ;) he's good jus loves to tease me in bad manner. Besides, it's also the first time I did up-selling, man the feeling of recommending juices and guests got hooked, then skipping to the juice bar was so brilliant, tooo bad such a trainee doesnt have staff id to key in pos, I couldn't get my incentives, or else I could have ended up with an extra of at least 5$ for that lunch!!!
Back to the point, I spent a whole lunch time inside that little sweet space called Chocolate room. And hellya, that room is stuffed with sweets which really melted a sweet tooth like me. Sherelin gave me a duty of arranging all the Xmas gifts for the media parties, think of press, broadcasting channels...blah blah blah. I didnt bother think about it. What I saw was spectacular, solid pieces of chocolate were put nicely into the box in my fingers; then colorful chilling macarons; not to forget cinnamon fruit cakes and ginger breads. A great combination that represents splendidly the image of Carousel to the mass communication community!!!!! And I was the one who did it ^^ I was so loving that sweet smell, those lovely cakes, the delicacy of people who were creating each piece of art with all their heart and mind that I couldnt calm down my excitement. Felt like I'd glad to stay there for a whole 6 month - internship. Even the chief chef ask me whether I want to be a part of the pastry kitchen when he caught my big attention on every thing. I like the way he rubbed my hair when I said one of my childhood dream was to become a patisserie chef... yeah~~~ my temptation to those lovely designed cakes and confectionery will never ends LOL jus like my passion to fashion is running in my blood. Too bad I had chosen a different path of life....
The atmosphere inside that little silent serene place was jus like a dream,totally different with watsoever chaos out there, where I gotta survive in 6 months. I didnt mean the people aint nice or the job itself is insane. It just, not suitable for me... like, all of those fast pace stuff, being scolded and preached by people for things u've done ur way, no matter it's right or wrong, carrying heavy plates and hot stuff that easily make ur finger's joins sobbing in sting or almost numbness at ur feet. Sometimes jus wanna pull over everything, say one word Q.U.I.T and that's it, no more tolerate, no more restraint, feel free to express your mood and attitude, what an autonomy i'm looking for. I wish. Inconsistent and confusing instruction from different Mr and Mrs. Smart, weariness of lunatic shift hours, quarrels with a few (or to be more accurate, only one, Trái Bắp - srry, but for my own sake, better safe than sorry jus in case i might be assassinated after this post.) Only a few fellas who can truely understand me, sadly they also need space for themselves, that they cant look after me all the time. Here and there I see people taking advantage and do things for their interest but I cant raise my voice... I even feel sorry for myself, for my cowardice...
Another frustration side of what we all call reality, in an employee's eye....
Back to the point, I spent a whole lunch time inside that little sweet space called Chocolate room. And hellya, that room is stuffed with sweets which really melted a sweet tooth like me. Sherelin gave me a duty of arranging all the Xmas gifts for the media parties, think of press, broadcasting channels...blah blah blah. I didnt bother think about it. What I saw was spectacular, solid pieces of chocolate were put nicely into the box in my fingers; then colorful chilling macarons; not to forget cinnamon fruit cakes and ginger breads. A great combination that represents splendidly the image of Carousel to the mass communication community!!!!! And I was the one who did it ^^ I was so loving that sweet smell, those lovely cakes, the delicacy of people who were creating each piece of art with all their heart and mind that I couldnt calm down my excitement. Felt like I'd glad to stay there for a whole 6 month - internship. Even the chief chef ask me whether I want to be a part of the pastry kitchen when he caught my big attention on every thing. I like the way he rubbed my hair when I said one of my childhood dream was to become a patisserie chef... yeah~~~ my temptation to those lovely designed cakes and confectionery will never ends LOL jus like my passion to fashion is running in my blood. Too bad I had chosen a different path of life....
The atmosphere inside that little silent serene place was jus like a dream,totally different with watsoever chaos out there, where I gotta survive in 6 months. I didnt mean the people aint nice or the job itself is insane. It just, not suitable for me... like, all of those fast pace stuff, being scolded and preached by people for things u've done ur way, no matter it's right or wrong, carrying heavy plates and hot stuff that easily make ur finger's joins sobbing in sting or almost numbness at ur feet. Sometimes jus wanna pull over everything, say one word Q.U.I.T and that's it, no more tolerate, no more restraint, feel free to express your mood and attitude, what an autonomy i'm looking for. I wish. Inconsistent and confusing instruction from different Mr and Mrs. Smart, weariness of lunatic shift hours, quarrels with a few (or to be more accurate, only one, Trái Bắp - srry, but for my own sake, better safe than sorry jus in case i might be assassinated after this post.) Only a few fellas who can truely understand me, sadly they also need space for themselves, that they cant look after me all the time. Here and there I see people taking advantage and do things for their interest but I cant raise my voice... I even feel sorry for myself, for my cowardice...
Another frustration side of what we all call reality, in an employee's eye....
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
A night with new buddies
It's a Monday night, after work at 4.30, I ran all the way to Bishan in order to join them for badminton game. Hahha, apparently I didnt play but the fact that we had a great conversation later during dinner is brilliant!!!!
There were Shaw, Will, David and me; all of the sudden I wanted to visit their place. So they we all got off at Adjunied mrt station. It's somewhere around 6.45, peak hour that you could see people squeezed, pressed and pushed each other like a smoothie blender. We were like a tiny petite piece of rice in the sushi roll that could hardly breath, hellish congested!!!! Now I know Will's favourite kind of music is R'n'B, like Alicia Keys (If I aint got you, we were humming this melody on the train b4 it got crowded) David's is Rock and pop, Shaw's more into Chinese classic =__= We talked about so many things on Earth that I wished the night would never end.
We had dinner together in a Prata house. Will ordered himsef onion&cheese, David got banana, Shaw happily enjoyed his cheese prata and for myself I called a mushroom. I'm not a prata or anything oily person, but gotta say the banana there is not bad, though the mushroom I had would rather tasteless. Despite the food wasnt my pot of gold, the conversation between us became more and more exciting. I asked them about their experience staying in S'pore, their aspirations, their dream job, their future plans, difficulties in S'pore and so on. I also learnt some bad word from them, but damn forgot it already. They were the only one who I sneaked the secret of my fake mc, coz in me there was a strong trust built during the time we spent together that I felt as if we were old friends, so I could share watever and knew that they wouldnt betray me. I was so relieved after saying it out but they all empathized with me, no one blamed or criticized me, that's a nice behavior in a freaky way, but I'm so fine with it. From their personal point of view, I understand more about Will, a guy who used to be a dancing assistant instructor in his college days and has a passion with F&B. While David loves interaction with people and traveling.
will told me how he felt when they work to their bone, much harder than the permanent staff but still their salary is lower, it's unfair but there's nothing we can do with it, so just let it be a topic for gossiping. He's only 1 year older yet he's like a generation more grown up than me. He mentioned that the job in Carousel as a waiter is not that bad, but he didnt want to stay at that position for a whole life. There was a thing that he said which really moved me: Value. To the old staff, It's the value they perceived at the hotel that keeps them working their permanently, while to us, our perception is different,that's why the job wouldnt last long with us. Totally true that I really salute him.
Out of the job- related topics, I also know that both Will and David are the smallest kids in their family, which make me understand why they are so carefree. Yet their mindset are really admirable. Will said I'm an easy going girl, which is still something I find surprising but true. He gave me a piece of mind that, in order to improve myself at work, I'd better set a target on my own every day, i.e. remember all the fruit juice, birthday song, table numbers, capacity of the restaurant.... By that way, I'd be able to push myself, thus I have a drive to achieve new knowledge and gain experience. I really appreciate his help and think should reply it right away by today ^^
By 10 something, they sent me home at the bus stop. Now I know there was actually a direct bus from their place to my home, so convenient =) Goodnight, good guys, see you today and the following days
There were Shaw, Will, David and me; all of the sudden I wanted to visit their place. So they we all got off at Adjunied mrt station. It's somewhere around 6.45, peak hour that you could see people squeezed, pressed and pushed each other like a smoothie blender. We were like a tiny petite piece of rice in the sushi roll that could hardly breath, hellish congested!!!! Now I know Will's favourite kind of music is R'n'B, like Alicia Keys (If I aint got you, we were humming this melody on the train b4 it got crowded) David's is Rock and pop, Shaw's more into Chinese classic =__= We talked about so many things on Earth that I wished the night would never end.
We had dinner together in a Prata house. Will ordered himsef onion&cheese, David got banana, Shaw happily enjoyed his cheese prata and for myself I called a mushroom. I'm not a prata or anything oily person, but gotta say the banana there is not bad, though the mushroom I had would rather tasteless. Despite the food wasnt my pot of gold, the conversation between us became more and more exciting. I asked them about their experience staying in S'pore, their aspirations, their dream job, their future plans, difficulties in S'pore and so on. I also learnt some bad word from them, but damn forgot it already. They were the only one who I sneaked the secret of my fake mc, coz in me there was a strong trust built during the time we spent together that I felt as if we were old friends, so I could share watever and knew that they wouldnt betray me. I was so relieved after saying it out but they all empathized with me, no one blamed or criticized me, that's a nice behavior in a freaky way, but I'm so fine with it. From their personal point of view, I understand more about Will, a guy who used to be a dancing assistant instructor in his college days and has a passion with F&B. While David loves interaction with people and traveling.
will told me how he felt when they work to their bone, much harder than the permanent staff but still their salary is lower, it's unfair but there's nothing we can do with it, so just let it be a topic for gossiping. He's only 1 year older yet he's like a generation more grown up than me. He mentioned that the job in Carousel as a waiter is not that bad, but he didnt want to stay at that position for a whole life. There was a thing that he said which really moved me: Value. To the old staff, It's the value they perceived at the hotel that keeps them working their permanently, while to us, our perception is different,that's why the job wouldnt last long with us. Totally true that I really salute him.
Out of the job- related topics, I also know that both Will and David are the smallest kids in their family, which make me understand why they are so carefree. Yet their mindset are really admirable. Will said I'm an easy going girl, which is still something I find surprising but true. He gave me a piece of mind that, in order to improve myself at work, I'd better set a target on my own every day, i.e. remember all the fruit juice, birthday song, table numbers, capacity of the restaurant.... By that way, I'd be able to push myself, thus I have a drive to achieve new knowledge and gain experience. I really appreciate his help and think should reply it right away by today ^^
By 10 something, they sent me home at the bus stop. Now I know there was actually a direct bus from their place to my home, so convenient =) Goodnight, good guys, see you today and the following days
Sunday, November 8, 2009
A week from the first day...
So today is Sun, this Sunday marked 1 week and 2 days I've been a temporary employee of Carousel. So many things happened here and there, tons of tricks and advice to memorize ( have I ever told u I hate memorizing things?) But the worst part is my physical condition has been tremendously affected. Start from the bottom up, my feet are almost paralyzed every night after work. I gotta put them in hot water, massage and hang them up lyk nearly half an hour just to reduce the pain they're giving me. My shoulders and arms are all weary that i felt hardly want to wash my clothes despite they have piled up like a tower of dirty smelly clothing mountain. My right wrist still hasn't fully recovered for 3 days (c'mon 3 days without rest, what kind of holy water that can help cure it?!).
Yesterday was one of greatest moment of my life that I actually bent the rules for a revolution of human rights and needs. i didnt care about the scenario for even one minute, all i wanted to do was spending a whole day for myself, pampering, recharging. All of the sudden, I didnt wanna work anymore, I'm tired of carrying all the heavy plates and stuffs, pretending to be energetic at all times no matter how drowsy I was, keeping a tattoo smile with everyone even they treated me lyk sh*t.I hate the way people look at me and tell me what to do as if I was a moron and disabled. I hate how incompetent I an to compare with other trainee, including David, imagine he coped up with the workplace so fast and I was like a black swan in the pond. I'm careless, immature, misbehaving and not punctual almost every morning shift. I'm sick of the tight schedule that drives my life crazy. Last night, I slept at 12.30 sth and woke up 3 times every 2 hours. Not only did my room mates found annoying but I myself also hated what's going on with my normal lifestyle. I planned to work out every 2 days and now I cant do it anymore. I gotta give up my dear French class becoz of this lunatic unfixed schedule every week. Yeah, all the complaints that came out of my head, but luckily haven't come out of my mouth, I put them here, coz I cant take them anymore. OVERWHELMED!!!!!
It's not I haven't tried to improve. It's not the work too overload. It's just we both dont cross at the same junction. Hopelessly disappointed~~~
The mere happiness at work are tips here and there. A few kind and nice people around me support me now and then, whenever I'm down, hang out with me off work, bring me laugh and joy, thank all you guys. But I feel so invisible, I'm not myself anymore if I continue this job. I'm lost in the middle of an intangible cold kitchen, where people are like machines, wearing uniform, emotionless faces keep walking and working, no empathy, no passion, not a thing. I'm not use to regulations and all these strict standard, I'm not use to adapt myself under camp boot like hardship. I'm sorry about that, but the more I do, the more I wanna quit. However, I jus cant easily follow my heart as if I was the only person on earth. Responsibility, dignity, expectation, and my own pride dont let me do that silly childish thing. So I guess all I can do is lessen the trouble I would continue posing to my colleagues. I'd better pick up some useful tips to make my life less miserable, so that people can trust me and respect who I am. Thus I might find what they call passion and fun at work, as our Employee value proposition, or core value, indicates. And hopefully, would be able to be recognized for my effort and celebrate it together with the ones who appreciate my contribution and my hard work.....
That's the last thing I can hold on to keep going this deadly journey. Amen
Yesterday was one of greatest moment of my life that I actually bent the rules for a revolution of human rights and needs. i didnt care about the scenario for even one minute, all i wanted to do was spending a whole day for myself, pampering, recharging. All of the sudden, I didnt wanna work anymore, I'm tired of carrying all the heavy plates and stuffs, pretending to be energetic at all times no matter how drowsy I was, keeping a tattoo smile with everyone even they treated me lyk sh*t.I hate the way people look at me and tell me what to do as if I was a moron and disabled. I hate how incompetent I an to compare with other trainee, including David, imagine he coped up with the workplace so fast and I was like a black swan in the pond. I'm careless, immature, misbehaving and not punctual almost every morning shift. I'm sick of the tight schedule that drives my life crazy. Last night, I slept at 12.30 sth and woke up 3 times every 2 hours. Not only did my room mates found annoying but I myself also hated what's going on with my normal lifestyle. I planned to work out every 2 days and now I cant do it anymore. I gotta give up my dear French class becoz of this lunatic unfixed schedule every week. Yeah, all the complaints that came out of my head, but luckily haven't come out of my mouth, I put them here, coz I cant take them anymore. OVERWHELMED!!!!!
It's not I haven't tried to improve. It's not the work too overload. It's just we both dont cross at the same junction. Hopelessly disappointed~~~
The mere happiness at work are tips here and there. A few kind and nice people around me support me now and then, whenever I'm down, hang out with me off work, bring me laugh and joy, thank all you guys. But I feel so invisible, I'm not myself anymore if I continue this job. I'm lost in the middle of an intangible cold kitchen, where people are like machines, wearing uniform, emotionless faces keep walking and working, no empathy, no passion, not a thing. I'm not use to regulations and all these strict standard, I'm not use to adapt myself under camp boot like hardship. I'm sorry about that, but the more I do, the more I wanna quit. However, I jus cant easily follow my heart as if I was the only person on earth. Responsibility, dignity, expectation, and my own pride dont let me do that silly childish thing. So I guess all I can do is lessen the trouble I would continue posing to my colleagues. I'd better pick up some useful tips to make my life less miserable, so that people can trust me and respect who I am. Thus I might find what they call passion and fun at work, as our Employee value proposition, or core value, indicates. And hopefully, would be able to be recognized for my effort and celebrate it together with the ones who appreciate my contribution and my hard work.....
That's the last thing I can hold on to keep going this deadly journey. Amen
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Day before the nightmare begins
Gosh, can't explain how i'm feeling by now...It's a mix of anxiety, nerves, excitement and butterflies all over my stomach. What if I say something wrong, what if I drop a plate, or some plates, or a whole pile of plate, gosh, I don't even wanna think about it TT____TT . Today completely worn me out running back and forth from the hotel, for uniform fitting; then all the way to Raffles Medical center for urine testing and injection. OMG, I was more than shocked to know my height was only 156cm, 0___0, eyes opened wide and mouth stayed stiff paralyzed. I remember last year it was 158cm something, if it didn't increase, shouldn't it decrease either =(( The ground collapse under my feet, or watever. It didn't stop there, Orchard building was the next stop where I got my X-ray test, the place where there was this extremely rude and weird old lady whose the way of asking me to take off my clothes made me feel as if she was checking if I brought along any weapon or drugs to the clinic!! Anyway, done the medical check part was somewhere around 12. I partly wanted to go back school, then AF for the enrollment of next module, partly hesitated for my roaring stomach. Eventually, my stomach won!! I dragged myself from Food Republic in Wisma to IOn Orchard. And ended up eating Takoyaki and green tea float from the Food opera of ION orchard. Becoz they looked incredibly yummy TT_____TT, and sinly!!! I indulged in every single bit before the last bite. No comment for the tea float, didn't make the grade, so don't need to mention.
Take a rest by walking along IOn, I stepped into Sephora. And got driven crazy by this BareMinerals make up kit that was exactly the same as the one I bought in Bella Pierre a couple of weeks ago. Needless to say, BP copied cat the other, and the price was the one that set the fire. BareMinerals was only 115$ to compare with 450$ of BP that cheated me by sellihng at 330$ sth and said that was a 30% discount for me, f*cking a**hole cheating byatches!!!! I felt sooo regretful and just wanted to return there and burn over their counter!!!!!! But calm down baby, things' done are done, u can't help but stand and stare. I've got so many regrets in life so far that I can't say sorry enough to myself and my purse TT____TT. Reset my mind by asking for a makeover by Bareminerals makeup kit, to see whether they're that much different. Basically the same, except for the Bareminerals added a bottle of serum to smooth your texture and a kaboki brush which was really soft and nice =) love it. Otherwise, BP offered 2 shades of blush and 3 pigments for eyes. SO I can't blame them anyway.... Haiz, one moment of hasty decision forever resentment .... Take this lesson dear, and learn to think twice before enter your PIN number!!!!
By 3.30, got an app in Tanjong Pagar Complex for work pass paper work with agent Ryan. The place was rather hidden that I took me a while to find it out. People were all over there, waiting for their work pass either renew or replace. I met Michelle and her hubby, her eyelids are abit funny but not to compare with her make up thing. Anyway, I had another photo section which ripped me mercilessly 6$, but the outcome was much more convincing than the one they did in ICA. The girl in the photo looked more like me, though my right eyelid still seemed smaller than the right side's. Thought it would take some time for the queue, yet the process was surprisingly fast, thanks to the helpful agent!!! The Vietnamese translation in the cubicle's wall was damn funny. It supposed to ask: " Ban da tung pham toi bao gio khong?" Yet I couldnt figure out the word for "tung". Actually, the sentence itself was grammatically incorrect, mind you =__= never mind, finished everything by almost 5pm, and utterly exhausted with my left arm nearly feeling of nothing but soar, feet and shoulders were both weary. But my sweet tooth didn't let me rest for one second, it quickly reminded me of Glace by Yamashita nearby, and how could I resist such a sweet temptation. Used all my last drop of energy, I found myself standing at the small store, staring wistfully at all the stocks. Why they had all variety right by today?? It's so so hard to choose, no, but definitely no more strawberry shortcake, the biggest disappointment after gave it a try few weeks ago. Well, then let's go for the RInrin tart- blueberry.
Had a hard time deciding whether I should go back to skool and inform him about today, and tell Robin that I wanna join Akido and Photography club. Half an hour later, beseated myself in the resident's corner inside my flat, c'mon, u can't just come to him no matter what happens to you, learn to take it personally, don't depend on him too much. It'd soon become irritating to him, that you make such a fuss over anything. Control my hardcore self and treat me a big bite at the mouthwatering tart. OMG, little did I know it was so so so sos delicious!!!!!! The cream and the blueberry jam and the case, everything just combined so well when it melted in your mouth and your teeth can feel the chill out of it. So sweet, so wonderful. Decided, my next favourite item from Glace, not the sweet fancy cakes watever pp crazed about, this little, simple yet beautifully elegant will be the one and only!!!!!
Will post the sequence about my shoes shopping by tmr, I'm knocked out, gotta prepare for tmr, at 8.30, cya, dear diary!!!!
Take a rest by walking along IOn, I stepped into Sephora. And got driven crazy by this BareMinerals make up kit that was exactly the same as the one I bought in Bella Pierre a couple of weeks ago. Needless to say, BP copied cat the other, and the price was the one that set the fire. BareMinerals was only 115$ to compare with 450$ of BP that cheated me by sellihng at 330$ sth and said that was a 30% discount for me, f*cking a**hole cheating byatches!!!! I felt sooo regretful and just wanted to return there and burn over their counter!!!!!! But calm down baby, things' done are done, u can't help but stand and stare. I've got so many regrets in life so far that I can't say sorry enough to myself and my purse TT____TT. Reset my mind by asking for a makeover by Bareminerals makeup kit, to see whether they're that much different. Basically the same, except for the Bareminerals added a bottle of serum to smooth your texture and a kaboki brush which was really soft and nice =) love it. Otherwise, BP offered 2 shades of blush and 3 pigments for eyes. SO I can't blame them anyway.... Haiz, one moment of hasty decision forever resentment .... Take this lesson dear, and learn to think twice before enter your PIN number!!!!
By 3.30, got an app in Tanjong Pagar Complex for work pass paper work with agent Ryan. The place was rather hidden that I took me a while to find it out. People were all over there, waiting for their work pass either renew or replace. I met Michelle and her hubby, her eyelids are abit funny but not to compare with her make up thing. Anyway, I had another photo section which ripped me mercilessly 6$, but the outcome was much more convincing than the one they did in ICA. The girl in the photo looked more like me, though my right eyelid still seemed smaller than the right side's. Thought it would take some time for the queue, yet the process was surprisingly fast, thanks to the helpful agent!!! The Vietnamese translation in the cubicle's wall was damn funny. It supposed to ask: " Ban da tung pham toi bao gio khong?" Yet I couldnt figure out the word for "tung". Actually, the sentence itself was grammatically incorrect, mind you =__= never mind, finished everything by almost 5pm, and utterly exhausted with my left arm nearly feeling of nothing but soar, feet and shoulders were both weary. But my sweet tooth didn't let me rest for one second, it quickly reminded me of Glace by Yamashita nearby, and how could I resist such a sweet temptation. Used all my last drop of energy, I found myself standing at the small store, staring wistfully at all the stocks. Why they had all variety right by today?? It's so so hard to choose, no, but definitely no more strawberry shortcake, the biggest disappointment after gave it a try few weeks ago. Well, then let's go for the RInrin tart- blueberry.
Had a hard time deciding whether I should go back to skool and inform him about today, and tell Robin that I wanna join Akido and Photography club. Half an hour later, beseated myself in the resident's corner inside my flat, c'mon, u can't just come to him no matter what happens to you, learn to take it personally, don't depend on him too much. It'd soon become irritating to him, that you make such a fuss over anything. Control my hardcore self and treat me a big bite at the mouthwatering tart. OMG, little did I know it was so so so sos delicious!!!!!! The cream and the blueberry jam and the case, everything just combined so well when it melted in your mouth and your teeth can feel the chill out of it. So sweet, so wonderful. Decided, my next favourite item from Glace, not the sweet fancy cakes watever pp crazed about, this little, simple yet beautifully elegant will be the one and only!!!!!
Will post the sequence about my shoes shopping by tmr, I'm knocked out, gotta prepare for tmr, at 8.30, cya, dear diary!!!!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Weirdest dream ever
The dream brought me back to the high school mates, some I know and some not. No, i didnt mean we're still high skool kids, it's us at the moment, yet we had chance to see each other as a gathering.
I met her,Hoa. That might be the second time I talked to her, since the last 2 (or 3?) summer. She was pretty tall, with shoulder length short hair, a big grin and sparkling eyes, all the things exactly alike what I had imagined (well, it should be coz it was a dream T___T). I told her He would come back from Aussi, well, It seemed we'd become friends after a while talking and poking (wondering if it could happen in reality). Everybody laughed at me and thought I'm nuts, okay. Then, at almost midnight, He showed up, dressed up in a knight's outfit. Still don't get it why he must dressed up like that =__+. Then I blurted out to Hoa: "See, I told you, he would" Then she smiled: "Yeah, I see, you're made for each other =))" No nono, I have nothing left for him, our story has long gone to the history. Now we're just friends, my feeling on him is like a handshake, a hug, and that's all. Sorry...
Then the dream continued by a number of new looks I can mixmatch in my wardrobe. Ironic, why must it be during this wee hour that my creativity becomes so active and energetic, took away my dear sleeping time TT___TT. I still think of it, mind you. well, it's like I'm in KK's class, wearing my favourite khaki vest, with my dear black and grey striped skirt, and the grey knit top, cover my neck elegantly by the fray scaft. Looks not bad, huh? Especially with the champagne hue for my eyes. I managed to seduce all the guys in class, including HIm. He comes during break and talks to me, we sit and laugh. well, I was a bit different, I seemed to be more grown up, melancholy and he said I'm so different today. Well I'm glad...
Sh*t, why are my eyes open now? Don't tell me it's wake up time =(( =((, I wanna sleep more, wanna dream abit more, plzzzzzz
bTw, what do those dreams mean? Will figure out afterward, when they actually happen
I met her,Hoa. That might be the second time I talked to her, since the last 2 (or 3?) summer. She was pretty tall, with shoulder length short hair, a big grin and sparkling eyes, all the things exactly alike what I had imagined (well, it should be coz it was a dream T___T). I told her He would come back from Aussi, well, It seemed we'd become friends after a while talking and poking (wondering if it could happen in reality). Everybody laughed at me and thought I'm nuts, okay. Then, at almost midnight, He showed up, dressed up in a knight's outfit. Still don't get it why he must dressed up like that =__+. Then I blurted out to Hoa: "See, I told you, he would" Then she smiled: "Yeah, I see, you're made for each other =))" No nono, I have nothing left for him, our story has long gone to the history. Now we're just friends, my feeling on him is like a handshake, a hug, and that's all. Sorry...
Then the dream continued by a number of new looks I can mixmatch in my wardrobe. Ironic, why must it be during this wee hour that my creativity becomes so active and energetic, took away my dear sleeping time TT___TT. I still think of it, mind you. well, it's like I'm in KK's class, wearing my favourite khaki vest, with my dear black and grey striped skirt, and the grey knit top, cover my neck elegantly by the fray scaft. Looks not bad, huh? Especially with the champagne hue for my eyes. I managed to seduce all the guys in class, including HIm. He comes during break and talks to me, we sit and laugh. well, I was a bit different, I seemed to be more grown up, melancholy and he said I'm so different today. Well I'm glad...
Sh*t, why are my eyes open now? Don't tell me it's wake up time =(( =((, I wanna sleep more, wanna dream abit more, plzzzzzz
bTw, what do those dreams mean? Will figure out afterward, when they actually happen
Saturday, October 24, 2009
A crazy Sat 24-10-09
My goshhh
My schedule wasn't supposed to be fulled today, however I felt totally hangover, thanks to at least 15 sips of numerous kinds of wines. Well, it's the Wine for Asia '09 anyway ;)) So give myself a break and just so it went~~~
It's surprising that my alcohol content was that low, I couldn't manage to stand straight on the way going back home. On the train, I kept swinging back and forth, which was an obvious sign of the absence of mind!!!! I was kind of somewhere between cloud nine and the earth... I don't know how great my thankfulness to Richard, the guy who is in charge of Mixology bar in the event hall. He's such a skillful bartender that his treat, which I cant recall the exotic name, was unbelievably delicious. It's a mixture of Gin, Rose, Lime juice, bits of cucumber, a tart of passion fruit and some lemonade near the end. Oh my, I was blown to Hawaii or some far away island that I had no clue and no desire to come back to this damn hot Singapore!!!! The texture was so smooth and refreshing, it's cool, sweet but not too much. And you got to see how he did the things, like a fantastic performance, the highest level that an expert can reach in beverage serving!!!! I salute you, Richard, especially when you forgot to charge me for that awesome drinks, your treat was one of the best I've ever had, thank you ^^
Then comes another trip to RP to see how big brother is doing. Wow, pretty cool, even though he's still as petit as before =)). Everybody was rushing, and man, it's not even dinner time yet, only 5pm something, and I hardly imagine people have main course for their tea break, but watever. Encounter a birthday party in site, a whole Carousel staff walked in line, following the manager who was holding the beautifully lit choco-birth cake gentle towards the long table. And they all sang Happy Birthday (not the traditional version, think it's uniquely Carousel-made. Things were running pretty well, though it's a lot more busy than I expected, but I'm looking forward to it. Especially with a nice manager who gave me a sweet handshake before I left. Brilliant, gonna start soon, gonna know them soon, gonna be part of the team soon. Can't wait!!!!!!!!! >>>v<<<<
My schedule wasn't supposed to be fulled today, however I felt totally hangover, thanks to at least 15 sips of numerous kinds of wines. Well, it's the Wine for Asia '09 anyway ;)) So give myself a break and just so it went~~~
It's surprising that my alcohol content was that low, I couldn't manage to stand straight on the way going back home. On the train, I kept swinging back and forth, which was an obvious sign of the absence of mind!!!! I was kind of somewhere between cloud nine and the earth... I don't know how great my thankfulness to Richard, the guy who is in charge of Mixology bar in the event hall. He's such a skillful bartender that his treat, which I cant recall the exotic name, was unbelievably delicious. It's a mixture of Gin, Rose, Lime juice, bits of cucumber, a tart of passion fruit and some lemonade near the end. Oh my, I was blown to Hawaii or some far away island that I had no clue and no desire to come back to this damn hot Singapore!!!! The texture was so smooth and refreshing, it's cool, sweet but not too much. And you got to see how he did the things, like a fantastic performance, the highest level that an expert can reach in beverage serving!!!! I salute you, Richard, especially when you forgot to charge me for that awesome drinks, your treat was one of the best I've ever had, thank you ^^
Then comes another trip to RP to see how big brother is doing. Wow, pretty cool, even though he's still as petit as before =)). Everybody was rushing, and man, it's not even dinner time yet, only 5pm something, and I hardly imagine people have main course for their tea break, but watever. Encounter a birthday party in site, a whole Carousel staff walked in line, following the manager who was holding the beautifully lit choco-birth cake gentle towards the long table. And they all sang Happy Birthday (not the traditional version, think it's uniquely Carousel-made. Things were running pretty well, though it's a lot more busy than I expected, but I'm looking forward to it. Especially with a nice manager who gave me a sweet handshake before I left. Brilliant, gonna start soon, gonna know them soon, gonna be part of the team soon. Can't wait!!!!!!!!! >>>v<<<<
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Don't cry with the moon...`
The day many of us will be forced to say "goodbye"
I remember those days as a freshman, i used to play it all single with not much company, but the time I gradudated there was a solid company of 20 somthing in unison of actions and mischief. But now they were all coming to an end and thats how life is. Parting is a parcel of life and we conclude it formally through a so called "farewell party".
How could I ever say "goodbye " to those sources of momentum, inspiration and relationships I had gained there. Somebody once asked, "where is the "good" in "goodbye'?"
With vivid thougths, heavy hearts and comforting each other, I left a deep and heavy sigh, with tears rolling down my cheeks, said that toughest word "GOODBYE" - au revoir
Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. and meeding again, after moments of lifetime, is certain for those who are friends.
_Richard Bach__
The old Irish form of Blessing.
Each one would be forced to walk off into distinct walks of life, knowing not what lay ahead of us, with tears watering our classrooms and playgrounds, and the dusty wind covering those teardrops... Memories that would last a life time, a fresh leaf amidst the dry and withered leaves of life.
The world is wide, we spread out in different directions;
But the world is small and round, we will surely meet again.
Farewell! God knows when we shall meet again
~william Shakespeare
I remember those days as a freshman, i used to play it all single with not much company, but the time I gradudated there was a solid company of 20 somthing in unison of actions and mischief. But now they were all coming to an end and thats how life is. Parting is a parcel of life and we conclude it formally through a so called "farewell party".
How could I ever say "goodbye " to those sources of momentum, inspiration and relationships I had gained there. Somebody once asked, "where is the "good" in "goodbye'?"
With vivid thougths, heavy hearts and comforting each other, I left a deep and heavy sigh, with tears rolling down my cheeks, said that toughest word "GOODBYE" - au revoir
Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. and meeding again, after moments of lifetime, is certain for those who are friends.
_Richard Bach__
The old Irish form of Blessing.
May the road rise up to meet you,
May the wind be ever at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
and the rain fall softly on your fields
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the hollow of his hands."
Each one would be forced to walk off into distinct walks of life, knowing not what lay ahead of us, with tears watering our classrooms and playgrounds, and the dusty wind covering those teardrops... Memories that would last a life time, a fresh leaf amidst the dry and withered leaves of life.
The world is wide, we spread out in different directions;
But the world is small and round, we will surely meet again.
Farewell! God knows when we shall meet again
~william Shakespeare
SHould I celebrate myself?
What an evening to remember!!
Thought I would go home like usual, if I didn't realize that: Sh!T, my phone disappeared? Where the hell has it gone? My mind was like a chaos. Gosshhh, all the numbers and messages on it, all the photos and the most importance was: that's the number I put in my cv, wat if I got an interview and damn, I couldn't get the call???!!! I was like sitting on fire. But I couldn't express my emotion. The words KK anf Francis caved in my head deeply that I forced myself to hide them all. The fear, the nerves, DON'T PANIC!!!!! That's what I kept telling myself. It's harder than anything else, but I don't want to be seen as a kid anymore, I don't one to lose respect on myself, I want to change into a madam with dignity and pride. I've got to stay kool, even if the earth shattered under my feet, I still have to stand straight and firm!!!!! And so I didn't cry, I didn't shed a single tear, I held them in, told myself: Jus a little bit more, just a little more, wait until yOu can't stand anymore, then cry as much as you like, but Not NOW!!!!!
I managed to ask him lending me hand, I faced him with calmness, not the wimpping birdshit like last time, mourning and whining! I just walked around, tried to find it, dear cell phone, asked anyone in a mild tone, so that no one would know I was impacted that much. Eventually, I did find that naughty phone, under the keyboard in learning center, thanks to Francis. I really don't know how to show my appreciation for his helpfulness. This is the second time, and still it's him who got me out of the trouble, seems like he's my lucky saint now!!!! It would be very quite and empty on the day he leaves.... He's leaving soon....
That's another story. My story with KK just began. I was waiting outside to inform him that I found my phone back. Then being slapped by a frustration worse than watever on earth, I saw him walking away from the place I was sitting, not his usual route but the shotcut way to Balestier road. I was stunned like for minutes. then I stood up, there's no point being down by such a man. Give up, Gaby, that's the end of your story tale. I was having those gloomy idea when we bummed each other at the t-junction. Hah, let's see wat you're gonna explain!!! I just turned around and he called me. He asked to confirm that Francis had helped me finding my phone back. Yeah~ he did, so what, I was sitting there waiting for you, to see you ran away from me. YOu don't want to see my face anymore. You ignored me, enough. I see, u don't like me anymore. Yeah~~~ I just gave him a stream of all the anger, tiredness and disappointment that a girl who got dumped could blame. And listen, how pitiful this gentleman tried to explain and better the weather. Uhmmmm, dear commander, you should know that watever you did, you don't even need to defend yourself, I could never get mad at you. Becoz it's you, that reason is enough for me to forgive anythign you did.... anything, but I just try to bring my pride higher abit, to ease myself from the extreme situation I just passed =P Srry for making you my stress pillow >>>v<<<< But you did that role well, so I might give you the second try. So we both headed to Novena station. He got his dinner, I got my icecream at Udders. He surprised that I knew that home-made icecream, heheh, ther are tons of things you haven't known about me yet, commander^^ On the bus, we talked about the incident. The first thing was his compliments on how i handled the situation. yeah~ without tears, without panic!!!! It's a massive improvement, exactly quoted from him ^^ Then he wondered how I managed to do the exam well so far, with such a bad memory =___=. that's what I wonder I well, so I just simple told him I stayed up all night trying to remember the things I forgot after I have remembered them the day before!!!~ Well, and he recommended me to take a memory therapy course or something like that. But I terminated that idea since I've played several kind of brain exercises as puzzles, riddles, jigsaws, watever and everythign remains the same T__T. It's either my problem or the games jus simply don't work as they said. I told him the reason why I didn't cry was becuz of my contact lense. If I cried, my eyes would be damn painful, so I held them inside ^__^ How could I tell him that I just didn't want to lose my image in front of him~~
The next thing I asked him was about Ensemble, c'est tout! That movie I watchd together with Louise, and he taught me how to say "so touched" ^^. He even taught me more about other verbs in French, such as regard, voir, and the difference between "Listen" and "hear". Kute KK!!!! Just don't want to part with him in United Square~~~~ But we've got to go our own way... Not only the ice cream shop for me and the dinner place for him today.... But the impending future....
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Thought I would go home like usual, if I didn't realize that: Sh!T, my phone disappeared? Where the hell has it gone? My mind was like a chaos. Gosshhh, all the numbers and messages on it, all the photos and the most importance was: that's the number I put in my cv, wat if I got an interview and damn, I couldn't get the call???!!! I was like sitting on fire. But I couldn't express my emotion. The words KK anf Francis caved in my head deeply that I forced myself to hide them all. The fear, the nerves, DON'T PANIC!!!!! That's what I kept telling myself. It's harder than anything else, but I don't want to be seen as a kid anymore, I don't one to lose respect on myself, I want to change into a madam with dignity and pride. I've got to stay kool, even if the earth shattered under my feet, I still have to stand straight and firm!!!!! And so I didn't cry, I didn't shed a single tear, I held them in, told myself: Jus a little bit more, just a little more, wait until yOu can't stand anymore, then cry as much as you like, but Not NOW!!!!!
I managed to ask him lending me hand, I faced him with calmness, not the wimpping birdshit like last time, mourning and whining! I just walked around, tried to find it, dear cell phone, asked anyone in a mild tone, so that no one would know I was impacted that much. Eventually, I did find that naughty phone, under the keyboard in learning center, thanks to Francis. I really don't know how to show my appreciation for his helpfulness. This is the second time, and still it's him who got me out of the trouble, seems like he's my lucky saint now!!!! It would be very quite and empty on the day he leaves.... He's leaving soon....
That's another story. My story with KK just began. I was waiting outside to inform him that I found my phone back. Then being slapped by a frustration worse than watever on earth, I saw him walking away from the place I was sitting, not his usual route but the shotcut way to Balestier road. I was stunned like for minutes. then I stood up, there's no point being down by such a man. Give up, Gaby, that's the end of your story tale. I was having those gloomy idea when we bummed each other at the t-junction. Hah, let's see wat you're gonna explain!!! I just turned around and he called me. He asked to confirm that Francis had helped me finding my phone back. Yeah~ he did, so what, I was sitting there waiting for you, to see you ran away from me. YOu don't want to see my face anymore. You ignored me, enough. I see, u don't like me anymore. Yeah~~~ I just gave him a stream of all the anger, tiredness and disappointment that a girl who got dumped could blame. And listen, how pitiful this gentleman tried to explain and better the weather. Uhmmmm, dear commander, you should know that watever you did, you don't even need to defend yourself, I could never get mad at you. Becoz it's you, that reason is enough for me to forgive anythign you did.... anything, but I just try to bring my pride higher abit, to ease myself from the extreme situation I just passed =P Srry for making you my stress pillow >>>v<<<< But you did that role well, so I might give you the second try. So we both headed to Novena station. He got his dinner, I got my icecream at Udders. He surprised that I knew that home-made icecream, heheh, ther are tons of things you haven't known about me yet, commander^^ On the bus, we talked about the incident. The first thing was his compliments on how i handled the situation. yeah~ without tears, without panic!!!! It's a massive improvement, exactly quoted from him ^^ Then he wondered how I managed to do the exam well so far, with such a bad memory =___=. that's what I wonder I well, so I just simple told him I stayed up all night trying to remember the things I forgot after I have remembered them the day before!!!~ Well, and he recommended me to take a memory therapy course or something like that. But I terminated that idea since I've played several kind of brain exercises as puzzles, riddles, jigsaws, watever and everythign remains the same T__T. It's either my problem or the games jus simply don't work as they said. I told him the reason why I didn't cry was becuz of my contact lense. If I cried, my eyes would be damn painful, so I held them inside ^__^ How could I tell him that I just didn't want to lose my image in front of him~~
The next thing I asked him was about Ensemble, c'est tout! That movie I watchd together with Louise, and he taught me how to say "so touched" ^^. He even taught me more about other verbs in French, such as regard, voir, and the difference between "Listen" and "hear". Kute KK!!!! Just don't want to part with him in United Square~~~~ But we've got to go our own way... Not only the ice cream shop for me and the dinner place for him today.... But the impending future....
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009
HTC Graduate
So finally, 5 weeks passed so fast, we hardly realized it has gone to the end of the journey. But still we wouldn't say good-bye to Jessie and Sydney yet, since we still have another 6 months internship to go, and it promises lots of issues that I believe we will have many chances to meet them again. However, once again, let me say how much I appreciate your effort in teaching us all the knowledge and techniques required by the industry so that we won't be shocked as newbie to the competitive world out there, I lOVE YOU TWO, JESSI And SYDNEY!!!!!!!
Whenever I miss you badly, I would come back and hug you madly^^ So watch out!!!
Talk about my excitment when I was looking for KK to take photo with him. Of course, what do you think, once in a lifetime that I can get this cert with this uniform in this OTT makeup thing, must find him to show my effort. My first try was unsuccessul, since they were all busy with those students asking for exam tips, well, jus like us before =P. But my luck didn't miss me when I went up the second time, just in time b4 they were about to go out for lunch. Christ was a nice guy when he helped us taking photo. Dear KK volunteered to shake my hand, pretending he was giving me the cert, so kute!!!!!! When his hand touched mine, I swear it's totally heavenly >>>v<<<< Ahhhhh, I was so afraid I didn't dare to hold it tight, but he did, so warm so gentle, melting my heart away "3".... For seconds, I thought time would stop for us like forever XP, for me to enjoy the moment, but too bad, they need lunch. And so I left them, enjoy myself with the photo that, as usual, I looked awfully happy!!!!
I desperately wanna saw him having lunch, and lucky me, Francis was going out for lunch too,so I dragged him. We walked and talked, more of seeking where the hell the lecturers eating. Here and there, I was pretty sure that eatery the only place in town where they would be. So we headed ther, thanks to my 6th sense, we said hi to them with faking surprise. Booowww, as if we bumped to each other by chance, but the truth was with intention. I had expected that we would share the table, but Francis preferred more air, so we sat at the table near the pavement. He was right, the food was not that nice, rice was dried and the taste wasn't that fantastic. Maybe the heaven feeling of beseating beside him last time covered my eyes and tongue so that I didn't realize it =b For 1 hour, I put him aside, totally into the interesting conversation with Francis. He's a good guy, too sad he's gonna leave soon, because of the politics at school. Why is it the same everywhere? Power and politics just don't spare anyone. And many of my good friends just can't take it, including him. Thanks to him, I know that IBM stands for Internation BIG MOUTH, S11 = $... and so on. Wish people could just stay with me instead of passing by along my life like that....
Anyway, paying 5$ for taxi and be nervous for the name tag that I thought I had 4gotten at home, but it's actually inside my coat pocket, very funny T"T. Come back from lunch to know that the library was closed until 2 and my bags were all inside. Otherwise, it's a nice day T"T!!!!
Whenever I miss you badly, I would come back and hug you madly^^ So watch out!!!
Talk about my excitment when I was looking for KK to take photo with him. Of course, what do you think, once in a lifetime that I can get this cert with this uniform in this OTT makeup thing, must find him to show my effort. My first try was unsuccessul, since they were all busy with those students asking for exam tips, well, jus like us before =P. But my luck didn't miss me when I went up the second time, just in time b4 they were about to go out for lunch. Christ was a nice guy when he helped us taking photo. Dear KK volunteered to shake my hand, pretending he was giving me the cert, so kute!!!!!! When his hand touched mine, I swear it's totally heavenly >>>v<<<< Ahhhhh, I was so afraid I didn't dare to hold it tight, but he did, so warm so gentle, melting my heart away "3".... For seconds, I thought time would stop for us like forever XP, for me to enjoy the moment, but too bad, they need lunch. And so I left them, enjoy myself with the photo that, as usual, I looked awfully happy!!!!
I desperately wanna saw him having lunch, and lucky me, Francis was going out for lunch too,so I dragged him. We walked and talked, more of seeking where the hell the lecturers eating. Here and there, I was pretty sure that eatery the only place in town where they would be. So we headed ther, thanks to my 6th sense, we said hi to them with faking surprise. Booowww, as if we bumped to each other by chance, but the truth was with intention. I had expected that we would share the table, but Francis preferred more air, so we sat at the table near the pavement. He was right, the food was not that nice, rice was dried and the taste wasn't that fantastic. Maybe the heaven feeling of beseating beside him last time covered my eyes and tongue so that I didn't realize it =b For 1 hour, I put him aside, totally into the interesting conversation with Francis. He's a good guy, too sad he's gonna leave soon, because of the politics at school. Why is it the same everywhere? Power and politics just don't spare anyone. And many of my good friends just can't take it, including him. Thanks to him, I know that IBM stands for Internation BIG MOUTH, S11 = $... and so on. Wish people could just stay with me instead of passing by along my life like that....
Anyway, paying 5$ for taxi and be nervous for the name tag that I thought I had 4gotten at home, but it's actually inside my coat pocket, very funny T"T. Come back from lunch to know that the library was closed until 2 and my bags were all inside. Otherwise, it's a nice day T"T!!!!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
we should begin as friendship, dont u think?
Today was damn special, so that even though I've got to sacrifice a bit of my precious sleeping hours, on you, I would anyway!!!!!
Yeah you, mr.J, now u know how special ur to me? And partly bcoz of my KK as well ^^. Let's kick off this series of incredible events by mentioning my habit of digging anything inside the library, from newspaper to postcards. And one day, that habit does good to me, indeed. It's the moment when I spotted my damn cute boi in Today's news. Who could have guessed I would see mr.J right there, the same smile, same eyes with gleam of aspiration, at our skool. What I did next, ran at once to the lecturer office!!! First minute, my heart was melted by this pinky shirt, my lord, my KK. Arrrrgg, u know u looked damn hot in any bright color, do u? And praising me with compliment likes: "U look very different today, Gabriel" was kind of shooting me out of earth >>>___<<< Yeah, and when i kicked back like: "How different is it?" He laughed at me, joyfully, "don't u pretend that, u know ur different today =))" Heheheh,seems like we were a family now, nothing to shy about, nothing to hide of, so that we can flatter each other with freedom, jus the way I love it!!!!
OK, back to the point, asked him where is HH, coz how significant this new to be informed to him >>>>____<<<. Aizzz, out for lunch, jus my luck. Then how about my dear KK, got lunch yet? Of course he did, coz he got class at 1pm, and looked pretty tired. It's my pleasure to cheer him up by my straw hat, hei, that's what he told me to be ^^. What a gentleman!!!
Yeah, don't mention that, dear. Then I thought what if I screwed up his emotion abit by the news I was holding. I came closer to his desk and asked his opinion about this guy. Then, totally irrelevant, he said the girl who was in the same photo used to be his student T____T. I mean, who the hell cares about that? I was asking him about my J~~~ Furthermore, look at his react when I told him this J was a smart, funny guy, very interesting. Lolz, why you looked so upset when ur saying "SO finally, u found a new target..." Did it sound bitter to you? Well, to me, it did. Seems like jealousy was in the air, if I was not wrong B-} Hhahaha, can't take enough of it, his smile was so sad the moment I describe to him about my J. Then you should see how it transfer from London rain to Hawaii breeze when I make a super comparison between the two. I was so cheerful and excited that I need somebody to calm me down. And well since ur more of the maturity, I was implying it can only be you, sweetheart, don't u notice?! Well, at least I saw a pleasant grin on his face. And hell ya, better let him finish all his piling up job b4 he found me damn annoying and fussy =D
by the time I just stepped out from his office, I bumped into Ms.Yang and HH, showed them the article immediately. And guess what I heard:
Ms.Yang: Hei, this guy was my student, he studies in UWIC (yeah, I know)
HH: ... [say sth which I can't recall,very sorry]....
Ms.Yang: Ur having a crush on him? [deem amazed]
Me: [nod my head madly]
Ms.Yang: Too bad, he's got a gf already, quite a long time, u know?She isn't here
Me: [frozen for 1 second] is that the girl who studies in SIM, I asked him the other day and he said they'r only cousins >>___< [hope it's true, man]
Ms.Yang: Then it's another girl, coz I saw their photo together, this guy is taken ^__^ [how could u say these words with a smile to me, ruthless madam]
Me: [Stunned, shocked, don't know how to respond but sobering] Gosh, I thought he's available to me >>>______<<<<<
Ms.Yang: u really have a crush on him? wowow, u had crush on many pp" [yeah, is it a problem to u, impolite lady?] better control yourself, girl!! ^___^ [stop laughing at me!!!]
**** End of the silly conversation******
I ran back to KK's desk, threw the paper on the floor, and mourning at him: "My chance has gone, now he's not available anymore, Bahwwwwww..." [don't know it's barking or crying]
Shame on me =___=
I still lost my mind in sending J sms about his success on the paper. Guess how he answered my sms:
When I said: "Don't scream in the library when u see ur face?" I meant it's for goodness, dear =D
12:59:33___why it sux?u mean it's today's date? The pic ugly?
This is how I replied: "Totally opposite, no offence but u look really kute in the photo >___<" [such a desperate lame T^T]
ALrite, the last one is a bit special coz it's sent after he left, as a compliment for my total outfit, including the straw hat that he said, made me look like a fisher woman ,ARGGGGGG +""+ How dare u?? But i'm glad he did notice my accessories anyway,not many can do that, except for J and K, my crazes =P!!!
Well, let's reminiscence back wat happened when he came to skool. I was running back from the office upstair for the paper when I saw him asking Bjorn sth. Then I saw him saw me, but I pretended that I was on sth else and walked straight to the library. Mind u, my intention was to lead him to my desk ^w^. It succeeded, he walked deliberately to me, raised his hand [left hair, i'm sure] and asked. Hhahahah, still the challenging face with that fascinating smile, ur shooting me dear. U know how hard I managed to speak properly to him? So that I wouldn't shutter, mumble or do watever to make me a fool in front of him. Well I did my best,but still i was a hyper in front of him. Let me tell how it was:
Firstly, we were arguing about whether this was a new post or not. He convinced me that he took that interview months ago, and it's too old already. Hahhah, he's trying to say that I'm out of dated and that ther's nth to be excited about. Of course ther's no way I would accept that. I argued back by saying I didn't know, then sobered "DId i disappoint u? U expect sth else, right?" Oh gosh, I must be very pitiful that he began to cheer me up:" No, that's fine, I mean it's just not very new ^^" Never mind, he turned to another subject :"See, I was taken photo right here, in the library, there the bookshelf, and I was sitting right at this table" [the table I was actually sitting at]. Then I asked him if it's right he was in National service for 6 years. He fixed it and said the right duration should be 3 years, then he's supposed to find a job when he decided to join EASB [good choice!] ANd we began to tease on the other girl who took photo with him [poor that girl] He thought she's young than him when we found out she's actually 4 years older [the fact is you are exceptionally young, mr.J =____+] I had noticed from the moment I saw him that he was wearing his team shirt -Codeandroid- but wasn't able to tell him. Coz if I did, it would prove that I had done a well-search about his profile, photos and any miscellaneous things around his life, and that's not a great thing to know. ANd still we quarreled over the published time of that edition, for he said it looked so old, worn out sth. The truth is becoz I brought it around skool, telling everyone this guy is my friend (so dumb!)But I insisted to change a new one for him. So I came to the counter and asked for another paper. U should look at Jenny's face, it's like "What, don't fall over him so much lyk that?" I did notice but jus couldn't control myself from doing OTT things TT"TT. He was so shy that he kept saying: " NO need, no need, really, I disturbed u, it's not necessary =)" with a distressful smile. Such a kute guy. Then, Jenny, what did u tell him??
And this is how he replied: I'm just kidding >___<
Goshhhh, at that time, I did make a fool of myself, didn't I? So embarrassing, don't know where to hide, anyone in the library must have felt very sorry for me .... Oh dear me, felt totally breathless when he took off my hat and asked why I wore it. I was so afraid, thought I would have collapsed. Tks God still managed to react:" Coz it's nice!!!". But the next thing he said did make my jaw stiffed. "But u look like a fishwoman" Huh HUH HUH???????? WTF, it's the last thing I ever expected to be commented by any-ONE >>>"<<<<< So hurtful, u know. I felt as if I couldn't hold it anymore that I jus wanted to kick his but as far as possible. SO I walked him out the door, jus the right time when Kyrene all of the sudden appeared and asked me for photo. I confirmed again with her about the hat on me, "It's nice" See, everybody said so, only u want to tease me!!!!! The last sentence from him jus sealed the deal perfectly.
U know it has lots of ambiguous meaning that it's kept me thinking until now >>__<<<
However, I'd love to have a friend like this guy, who kuteness can definitely kill ur sadness ^^
Yeah you, mr.J, now u know how special ur to me? And partly bcoz of my KK as well ^^. Let's kick off this series of incredible events by mentioning my habit of digging anything inside the library, from newspaper to postcards. And one day, that habit does good to me, indeed. It's the moment when I spotted my damn cute boi in Today's news. Who could have guessed I would see mr.J right there, the same smile, same eyes with gleam of aspiration, at our skool. What I did next, ran at once to the lecturer office!!! First minute, my heart was melted by this pinky shirt, my lord, my KK. Arrrrgg, u know u looked damn hot in any bright color, do u? And praising me with compliment likes: "U look very different today, Gabriel" was kind of shooting me out of earth >>>___<<< Yeah, and when i kicked back like: "How different is it?" He laughed at me, joyfully, "don't u pretend that, u know ur different today =))" Heheheh,seems like we were a family now, nothing to shy about, nothing to hide of, so that we can flatter each other with freedom, jus the way I love it!!!!
OK, back to the point, asked him where is HH, coz how significant this new to be informed to him >>>>____<<<. Aizzz, out for lunch, jus my luck. Then how about my dear KK, got lunch yet? Of course he did, coz he got class at 1pm, and looked pretty tired. It's my pleasure to cheer him up by my straw hat, hei, that's what he told me to be ^^. What a gentleman!!!
Thanks for cheering me up with your hat!!!
Yeah, don't mention that, dear. Then I thought what if I screwed up his emotion abit by the news I was holding. I came closer to his desk and asked his opinion about this guy. Then, totally irrelevant, he said the girl who was in the same photo used to be his student T____T. I mean, who the hell cares about that? I was asking him about my J~~~ Furthermore, look at his react when I told him this J was a smart, funny guy, very interesting. Lolz, why you looked so upset when ur saying "SO finally, u found a new target..." Did it sound bitter to you? Well, to me, it did. Seems like jealousy was in the air, if I was not wrong B-} Hhahaha, can't take enough of it, his smile was so sad the moment I describe to him about my J. Then you should see how it transfer from London rain to Hawaii breeze when I make a super comparison between the two. I was so cheerful and excited that I need somebody to calm me down. And well since ur more of the maturity, I was implying it can only be you, sweetheart, don't u notice?! Well, at least I saw a pleasant grin on his face. And hell ya, better let him finish all his piling up job b4 he found me damn annoying and fussy =D
by the time I just stepped out from his office, I bumped into Ms.Yang and HH, showed them the article immediately. And guess what I heard:
Ms.Yang: Hei, this guy was my student, he studies in UWIC (yeah, I know)
HH: ... [say sth which I can't recall,very sorry]....
Ms.Yang: Ur having a crush on him? [deem amazed]
Me: [nod my head madly]
Ms.Yang: Too bad, he's got a gf already, quite a long time, u know?She isn't here
Me: [frozen for 1 second] is that the girl who studies in SIM, I asked him the other day and he said they'r only cousins >>___< [hope it's true, man]
Ms.Yang: Then it's another girl, coz I saw their photo together, this guy is taken ^__^ [how could u say these words with a smile to me, ruthless madam]
Me: [Stunned, shocked, don't know how to respond but sobering] Gosh, I thought he's available to me >>>______<<<<<
Ms.Yang: u really have a crush on him? wowow, u had crush on many pp" [yeah, is it a problem to u, impolite lady?] better control yourself, girl!! ^___^ [stop laughing at me!!!]
**** End of the silly conversation******
I ran back to KK's desk, threw the paper on the floor, and mourning at him: "My chance has gone, now he's not available anymore, Bahwwwwww..." [don't know it's barking or crying]
Shame on me =___=
I still lost my mind in sending J sms about his success on the paper. Guess how he answered my sms:
12:36:27___Wat new
12:36:55___Where how come
12:44:08___Huh newspaper?
12:44:27___Or today paper?
12:44:39___Mypaper?
12:49:54___Hmm...ok it's old news or new one? Wats the edition? There is a library here
12:50:43___I'm near school
12:55:32___It's in our school library?
When I said: "Don't scream in the library when u see ur face?" I meant it's for goodness, dear =D
12:59:33___why it sux?u mean it's today's date? The pic ugly?
This is how I replied: "Totally opposite, no offence but u look really kute in the photo >___<" [such a desperate lame T^T]
13:02:02___So what type of paper?
13:34:08___Ok thanks u look like a little gal
ALrite, the last one is a bit special coz it's sent after he left, as a compliment for my total outfit, including the straw hat that he said, made me look like a fisher woman ,ARGGGGGG +""+ How dare u?? But i'm glad he did notice my accessories anyway,not many can do that, except for J and K, my crazes =P!!!
Well, let's reminiscence back wat happened when he came to skool. I was running back from the office upstair for the paper when I saw him asking Bjorn sth. Then I saw him saw me, but I pretended that I was on sth else and walked straight to the library. Mind u, my intention was to lead him to my desk ^w^. It succeeded, he walked deliberately to me, raised his hand [left hair, i'm sure] and asked. Hhahahah, still the challenging face with that fascinating smile, ur shooting me dear. U know how hard I managed to speak properly to him? So that I wouldn't shutter, mumble or do watever to make me a fool in front of him. Well I did my best,but still i was a hyper in front of him. Let me tell how it was:
Firstly, we were arguing about whether this was a new post or not. He convinced me that he took that interview months ago, and it's too old already. Hahhah, he's trying to say that I'm out of dated and that ther's nth to be excited about. Of course ther's no way I would accept that. I argued back by saying I didn't know, then sobered "DId i disappoint u? U expect sth else, right?" Oh gosh, I must be very pitiful that he began to cheer me up:" No, that's fine, I mean it's just not very new ^^" Never mind, he turned to another subject :"See, I was taken photo right here, in the library, there the bookshelf, and I was sitting right at this table" [the table I was actually sitting at]. Then I asked him if it's right he was in National service for 6 years. He fixed it and said the right duration should be 3 years, then he's supposed to find a job when he decided to join EASB [good choice!] ANd we began to tease on the other girl who took photo with him [poor that girl] He thought she's young than him when we found out she's actually 4 years older [the fact is you are exceptionally young, mr.J =____+] I had noticed from the moment I saw him that he was wearing his team shirt -Codeandroid- but wasn't able to tell him. Coz if I did, it would prove that I had done a well-search about his profile, photos and any miscellaneous things around his life, and that's not a great thing to know. ANd still we quarreled over the published time of that edition, for he said it looked so old, worn out sth. The truth is becoz I brought it around skool, telling everyone this guy is my friend (so dumb!)But I insisted to change a new one for him. So I came to the counter and asked for another paper. U should look at Jenny's face, it's like "What, don't fall over him so much lyk that?" I did notice but jus couldn't control myself from doing OTT things TT"TT. He was so shy that he kept saying: " NO need, no need, really, I disturbed u, it's not necessary =)" with a distressful smile. Such a kute guy. Then, Jenny, what did u tell him??
"U see, every word u say is very important to her"
And this is how he replied: I'm just kidding >___<
Goshhhh, at that time, I did make a fool of myself, didn't I? So embarrassing, don't know where to hide, anyone in the library must have felt very sorry for me .... Oh dear me, felt totally breathless when he took off my hat and asked why I wore it. I was so afraid, thought I would have collapsed. Tks God still managed to react:" Coz it's nice!!!". But the next thing he said did make my jaw stiffed. "But u look like a fishwoman" Huh HUH HUH???????? WTF, it's the last thing I ever expected to be commented by any-ONE >>>"<<<<< So hurtful, u know. I felt as if I couldn't hold it anymore that I jus wanted to kick his but as far as possible. SO I walked him out the door, jus the right time when Kyrene all of the sudden appeared and asked me for photo. I confirmed again with her about the hat on me, "It's nice" See, everybody said so, only u want to tease me!!!!! The last sentence from him jus sealed the deal perfectly.
'nothing, I just like to make fun of her ;))"WHAT DOES THAT MEAN, J??????
U know it has lots of ambiguous meaning that it's kept me thinking until now >>__<<<
However, I'd love to have a friend like this guy, who kuteness can definitely kill ur sadness ^^
Saturday, September 12, 2009
a question
What am I thinking?
I mean all of the sudden, he's there in my life, just a bit strong impression, and i'm obsessed with him now >>____<< what the hell is going on? I had always supposed KK the only creature of God I would think about, but Why am I disturbed by another guy, whom I found damn nice, interested, and available. I mean, I was jus about to give up after I thought he got a gf, but darn it,why did he tell me she's a cousin only? Does it have any special meaning, I don't know, but why do I hope it so??? I mean, he's kute, bright face, study well and clever. His achievements are quite a number, and somehow he impressed me with his travel record: all countries in Europe, parts of Asia and AUssie.Oh, c'mon,and now I even find myself stepping into his fb almost every 10 mins, it's too much ado about nothing. The cold just wanders around me for these few days, and it doesn't tend to leave. I'm sickening of it and of myself. Feel like I'm kinda flirtatious, I'm too easy, aint I? I can fall in with any guy? Definitely not, but why I'm having this feeling on him too. When I thought he's taken already, to be honest, my heart sunk a bit, almost breathless. Then when he revealed that it's not true, i felt relieved, lunatic? To a stranger whom I just talked to less than 1hr. And why do we have so many things in common, he stays in Balestier road, great sense of humour, bright smile, and busy. I want to stop this silly feeling, coz I'm sure it's only a crush, but why do I keep thinking about him. The more I look at his photo and his work, the more I admire this guy, such a talented person. I tend to pay special attention on whoever gain my admiration, he's no exception, dear me~~~~ And why why why, this guy make me thinking hard, can't concentrate on anything, even the exam on the way just few more days. C'mon, what should I do? I still like HIM, but this guy gets on the way, and it seems more advisable if I'm with him, not KK... But my head keeps shouting :"Betrayal, why can't u just be loyal to one and only, u should know once u commit to someone, u've got to stick with him.." I know but it's just something I can't explain. He's not really my ideal date anyway, not tall, too slim, long hair, a bit soft, but why?? Is it the way he speaks that attracts me? Is it his idea that pulls me over his table? Is it his kute smile that pushes me to this difficult situation????? someone help me dealing this stupid headache, plzzz. It's just too much for my little head, which is struggling with the fever TT"TT I want to clear up everything, but damn why it all ends up messy and dizzy like this?!!!!!!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Another walk, and here we were
Darling, I know no matter how far we are, the destiny still brings us back together~
Jus wanna tell you how tired I was today, that I almost got no time to see you in the morning, to wish you a nice day without stress and fatigue. Thought I could have finished RM by 1 or 2pm, so that I could flirt around you abit. Dear old KC jus didn't let me free for a minute, even it's not his class today, still managed to turn me dizzy +"+. I simply thought doing a favor for him couldn't be a big deal, but darn, it's indeed a super big deal!!!! Over 200 grades to check and note into his record so that later on they can be keyed into his computer!!!! Who asked you to torture yourself like that, doctor? or your dear student who volunteer becoz she didn't know it would turn out to be that hard. I strove from 1~2.30pm dying hard to finish the pile >>>____<<< HORRIBLE, swear never be so kind like that again to anyone!!!! My eyes were like, couldn't recognize black and white, all the numbers jumping around and names pumping in my head. what a nightmare!!!! Tks God, I did my best to finish it before my laptop turned off thanks to dead battery. So still be able to finish at least the report part itself. Then waiting for the battery from ss.Kelly, how troublesome ~~~~
But God know how to make up for me^^ I think he intentionally cut off the internet connection inside RM class so that I would be out and destined to see him at the opposite side, 3-10 as usual. Don't know whether he saw me, but I felt lighter a little bit. Then when we came down to Learning center, Goshh, just have seated less than 1 minute, and he followed me?! He was there, too, stood right in front of me, jus wish he was secretly gazing at me, not Debora bbb >>>3<<<<. Man, I was STUNNED, never expected that we could see each other so often in such a while like that. What a funny day!!! It definitely helped lift up my mood swing!!!! Deo was drawing funny things on the white board, I teased him by fixing those figures. And that's the beginning of an ART ATTACK later on. He began to portrait me, which was extremely humiliating and humorous!!!!How dare him, and I would never put up with such a thing. I rose back, drawing him with big nose and sharp face, but dear me, never know how to draw ugly things, totally lost over him!!!!! He dare to make a fool of me by drawing full of the board picture of an old, ugly and stupid me. OUCH!!!!!~~~ And even touched my dearie KK!!! Can't stand anymore, much take back the image of darling. So I got on, and drew such a kool KK that wooed everyone in class =)) and not too far away was me with sparkling eyes, daydreaming about my love, so adorable with an arror flying straight to him!!!!
But the game couldn't go on for long, It's time for the presentation after all. I didn't have any script and didn't feel nervous or butterfly in stomach at all, totally comfortable and fun. That's why HH commented later that it was almost GABRIEL's SHOW!!!! After the present ended, what he could remember was my performance, whilte it was supposed to be a GROUP presentation!!! I was so sorry for the other team mates, they did good job too. It's just I don't know whether bad or good luck that I turned out to be the main speaker, who analyzed all those pie charts and test results. I meant I didn't tend to become the rising star who get most of the job's fame, u know. Just hope they understand....
By the way, let's talk about HH comment. What's that?
Sorry, didn't I get it wrong? I thought we were supposed to make it look professional with bright background, clear font and simple format, as MY DEAR LECTURER said so? ANd it was HIM who gave me such a break for my funny running panda in HSK's ppt, wasn't it? I found myself totally confused now >>___<<. ANd that led to another reason for me to see him later, yay!!!!!
Rushing down to his office, thanks God he's still there, talking on the phone.STill look sweet and kool as always!!!! I wanted to sit inside, and so I did. But his call seemed too long, it made me waiting like forever, coudn't tolerate, so I decided to walk out, at least kept for myself a bit dignity, I was not begging for his attention, okay? ^"^ Ah hah, the old saying is always right, Leave love, love follows, there he was, stepped out from the office with his backpack on, probably thought that I gave up and went left skool without him =P!!! Never would I, honey~~~~
So finally cut off the call and turned to me ^^ I used my excuse as a perfect way to begin the conversation. And it worked damn well!!!! We went on until the gate, outside the street, then turned to the bus stop as the bus CAME!!!! And guess what, little Audrey was there too with some of her friends. AHHH, so shy was I?!! No, I even felt a bit proud, hehehe, I jsut wanna whisper to her "see, we are officially together now ^^!!!" KAKAK, but I didn't, better let him feel secured rather than stirling the public about our affair =D On the bus, our story went on as I asked him about what he would be if he wasn't a lecturer. "A policeman, I guess, when I was 4 or so"... hahah, such a kute confession. And I threw to him a funny feedback "U can't be a policeman, ur face is too funny, no criminal would be scared of u!! =))" Guess what he responded "Why not, when they see my funny face, they would laugh alot and couldn't move!!!" Hahahahha, such a guy with great sense of humour, indeed!!!! I would never think of that. My choice was always right, see? ^^ Then I told him what I was always thinking about Dunkin Donut near JB, and he agreed to (yay me!!!) He exclaimed that Dunkin has a different texture, softer, more puffer which sets it aside from other rivals such as donut factory or empire something =P awww, so drooling when he said about all of these. Then what else, yeah~ my wisdom tooth!!! He still remembered it >>_<< Ahhhh, how gentle and caring!!!! He still wondered how could I got it at 20 something, then we exchanged our experiences of how painful it was when we got the wisdom tooth picked out. Hahah, I found out that he lost his wisdom tooth too, but the dentist made it painless to him, so he felt no pain at all. Yet the next day it would be dreadfully terrible, how kute such a expression on him >>>>>v<<<<<<
Ahhhh, now it's arrived Toa Payob Central already ~~~ So sad, it's time for Au revoir =(( By the way, he wished my enjoying the char siew pau in that Tiong Bahru shop, and I did, be so grateful and delightful at the same time cos he was the one who introduced it to me the last time >>>>o<<<< ANd it's damn good. After I bought it, he even suggested me to accompany it with KOI milk tea!!!! Hahaha, same minds alike, right?!!!!!! ^v^
Jus wanna tell you how tired I was today, that I almost got no time to see you in the morning, to wish you a nice day without stress and fatigue. Thought I could have finished RM by 1 or 2pm, so that I could flirt around you abit. Dear old KC jus didn't let me free for a minute, even it's not his class today, still managed to turn me dizzy +"+. I simply thought doing a favor for him couldn't be a big deal, but darn, it's indeed a super big deal!!!! Over 200 grades to check and note into his record so that later on they can be keyed into his computer!!!! Who asked you to torture yourself like that, doctor? or your dear student who volunteer becoz she didn't know it would turn out to be that hard. I strove from 1~2.30pm dying hard to finish the pile >>>____<<< HORRIBLE, swear never be so kind like that again to anyone!!!! My eyes were like, couldn't recognize black and white, all the numbers jumping around and names pumping in my head. what a nightmare!!!! Tks God, I did my best to finish it before my laptop turned off thanks to dead battery. So still be able to finish at least the report part itself. Then waiting for the battery from ss.Kelly, how troublesome ~~~~
But God know how to make up for me^^ I think he intentionally cut off the internet connection inside RM class so that I would be out and destined to see him at the opposite side, 3-10 as usual. Don't know whether he saw me, but I felt lighter a little bit. Then when we came down to Learning center, Goshh, just have seated less than 1 minute, and he followed me?! He was there, too, stood right in front of me, jus wish he was secretly gazing at me, not Debora bbb >>>3<<<<. Man, I was STUNNED, never expected that we could see each other so often in such a while like that. What a funny day!!! It definitely helped lift up my mood swing!!!! Deo was drawing funny things on the white board, I teased him by fixing those figures. And that's the beginning of an ART ATTACK later on. He began to portrait me, which was extremely humiliating and humorous!!!!How dare him, and I would never put up with such a thing. I rose back, drawing him with big nose and sharp face, but dear me, never know how to draw ugly things, totally lost over him!!!!! He dare to make a fool of me by drawing full of the board picture of an old, ugly and stupid me. OUCH!!!!!~~~ And even touched my dearie KK!!! Can't stand anymore, much take back the image of darling. So I got on, and drew such a kool KK that wooed everyone in class =)) and not too far away was me with sparkling eyes, daydreaming about my love, so adorable with an arror flying straight to him!!!!
But the game couldn't go on for long, It's time for the presentation after all. I didn't have any script and didn't feel nervous or butterfly in stomach at all, totally comfortable and fun. That's why HH commented later that it was almost GABRIEL's SHOW!!!! After the present ended, what he could remember was my performance, whilte it was supposed to be a GROUP presentation!!! I was so sorry for the other team mates, they did good job too. It's just I don't know whether bad or good luck that I turned out to be the main speaker, who analyzed all those pie charts and test results. I meant I didn't tend to become the rising star who get most of the job's fame, u know. Just hope they understand....
By the way, let's talk about HH comment. What's that?
YOur generation is supposed to be fun and exciting. Why don't u just put some animated photos or colorful touch up to make it more interesting?
Sorry, didn't I get it wrong? I thought we were supposed to make it look professional with bright background, clear font and simple format, as MY DEAR LECTURER said so? ANd it was HIM who gave me such a break for my funny running panda in HSK's ppt, wasn't it? I found myself totally confused now >>___<<. ANd that led to another reason for me to see him later, yay!!!!!
Rushing down to his office, thanks God he's still there, talking on the phone.STill look sweet and kool as always!!!! I wanted to sit inside, and so I did. But his call seemed too long, it made me waiting like forever, coudn't tolerate, so I decided to walk out, at least kept for myself a bit dignity, I was not begging for his attention, okay? ^"^ Ah hah, the old saying is always right, Leave love, love follows, there he was, stepped out from the office with his backpack on, probably thought that I gave up and went left skool without him =P!!! Never would I, honey~~~~
So finally cut off the call and turned to me ^^ I used my excuse as a perfect way to begin the conversation. And it worked damn well!!!! We went on until the gate, outside the street, then turned to the bus stop as the bus CAME!!!! And guess what, little Audrey was there too with some of her friends. AHHH, so shy was I?!! No, I even felt a bit proud, hehehe, I jsut wanna whisper to her "see, we are officially together now ^^!!!" KAKAK, but I didn't, better let him feel secured rather than stirling the public about our affair =D On the bus, our story went on as I asked him about what he would be if he wasn't a lecturer. "A policeman, I guess, when I was 4 or so"... hahah, such a kute confession. And I threw to him a funny feedback "U can't be a policeman, ur face is too funny, no criminal would be scared of u!! =))" Guess what he responded "Why not, when they see my funny face, they would laugh alot and couldn't move!!!" Hahahahha, such a guy with great sense of humour, indeed!!!! I would never think of that. My choice was always right, see? ^^ Then I told him what I was always thinking about Dunkin Donut near JB, and he agreed to (yay me!!!) He exclaimed that Dunkin has a different texture, softer, more puffer which sets it aside from other rivals such as donut factory or empire something =P awww, so drooling when he said about all of these. Then what else, yeah~ my wisdom tooth!!! He still remembered it >>_<< Ahhhh, how gentle and caring!!!! He still wondered how could I got it at 20 something, then we exchanged our experiences of how painful it was when we got the wisdom tooth picked out. Hahah, I found out that he lost his wisdom tooth too, but the dentist made it painless to him, so he felt no pain at all. Yet the next day it would be dreadfully terrible, how kute such a expression on him >>>>>v<<<<<<
Ahhhh, now it's arrived Toa Payob Central already ~~~ So sad, it's time for Au revoir =(( By the way, he wished my enjoying the char siew pau in that Tiong Bahru shop, and I did, be so grateful and delightful at the same time cos he was the one who introduced it to me the last time >>>>o<<<< ANd it's damn good. After I bought it, he even suggested me to accompany it with KOI milk tea!!!! Hahaha, same minds alike, right?!!!!!! ^v^
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
AWEEEEEEEEEEEEESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Jus now he came up to the 4rd floor and saluted me >>>________<<<< I swear I had no idea that he would have done something like that, the moment he stepped up to the stairs going up, I was a bit surprised, but when I realized he actually CAME UP to wave me and shout out: "Salut!!!" I must told myself thousand times: "Stop stop, hold it back, you cant scream and jump like mad ape in front of him, inside this suit, UNACCEPTABLE!!!!" So that I managed to stay calm and smiled back. No, in fact, at first I couldn't get what he said. And that made us to go round the floor, near the rest room, to make clear what he had shouted!!! Salut!!! Of course I did learn that before, but just didn't get it. His voice was too gentle to get anything >>>>o<<<<<< By the way, I told him the reason why I got fever the other day. FOr the sake of my wisdom tooth. Then his curiousity was just so kute when he asked me:"How can you still have wisdom tooth at 20 something?!" :) Hahhahahaha, that's wat I wonder too, monsieur =P All of the sudden, Ms.Jessie appeared, Goshhhhh!!! We all were like "Wooosh, not really in time >>"<<<" Of course she must asked us "Why you both talking outside of the man's room? ^^" Hahhaah, then let's hear his respondence: "Harassment! HAHAHHA" WHAT? how dare him? :)) Gosh, this guy is so kute, can't stop liking him really >>>>________________________<<<<<<
Like you so much, dear KK
Jus now he came up to the 4rd floor and saluted me >>>________<<<< I swear I had no idea that he would have done something like that, the moment he stepped up to the stairs going up, I was a bit surprised, but when I realized he actually CAME UP to wave me and shout out: "Salut!!!" I must told myself thousand times: "Stop stop, hold it back, you cant scream and jump like mad ape in front of him, inside this suit, UNACCEPTABLE!!!!" So that I managed to stay calm and smiled back. No, in fact, at first I couldn't get what he said. And that made us to go round the floor, near the rest room, to make clear what he had shouted!!! Salut!!! Of course I did learn that before, but just didn't get it. His voice was too gentle to get anything >>>>o<<<<<< By the way, I told him the reason why I got fever the other day. FOr the sake of my wisdom tooth. Then his curiousity was just so kute when he asked me:"How can you still have wisdom tooth at 20 something?!" :) Hahhahahaha, that's wat I wonder too, monsieur =P All of the sudden, Ms.Jessie appeared, Goshhhhh!!! We all were like "Wooosh, not really in time >>"<<<" Of course she must asked us "Why you both talking outside of the man's room? ^^" Hahhaah, then let's hear his respondence: "Harassment! HAHAHHA" WHAT? how dare him? :)) Gosh, this guy is so kute, can't stop liking him really >>>>________________________<<<<<<
Like you so much, dear KK
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
You are so MEAN!!!!!
Because I was almost breathless by the time I saw every single word in your message:
I can't hold myself from expressing it!!! It's just too much, too sweet, too sentiment, too gentle, my commander!!!!!! I wasn't blind to choose you, loving you is kind of pleasure that I surely would never get bored with!!!! I'm so into you, your smile is more beautiful than any gift in this world, your laughter is more cheerful than any bells in this world!!!! And how could I tell you all of this without opening my mouth, dear? How could I show you how much I care, how much I think, how much I want to_____ see you, hear you, be with you!!!!! Having waited in the dark from 5pm to 7.40, be bitten by plenty of insect, including mosquito, my head was like a volcano. The damn fever couldn't keep me from doing this stupid thing. Yeah, it's silly, jus like you said. I managed to scared Mr.R accidentally, I managed to startle and amaze you by changing my look. It was a good job, I could see it in your eyes, the way you gave compliment was like no other. But I accepted it, because it was You!!! No matter what others might talk about me, I don't give it a damn as long as you don't. So what, I can't help myself. Too stuffed, overloaded, wanna scream out what I'm feeling now. Recalled back when you asked me about all of those medication, it showed you care. What's the name, hahah, I can't tell coz it's girl's things. But everything proved. You care for ME!!! And that's all I need~~~ I was joking that I could have caught H1N1 when you instantly asked me why. Yeah, and I was so enthusiastic to put the blame on the poor swimming pool nearby and the cinema, when the actual reason is because of lovesick!!!! Can't you see,you effect on me is just too much to measure!!!! Now I must admit that: I won't let it go!!!! I wouldn't care what others would say, I won't let go, never~~ Even though I will have to stay by the verge like weed, I will stick there. I don't want this moment to end, coz it's just incredibly infinite....
A demain, my commander...
You're very silly, please take care of yourself first before you think about others. I much prefer to see a healthy you. A demain. :)
I can't hold myself from expressing it!!! It's just too much, too sweet, too sentiment, too gentle, my commander!!!!!! I wasn't blind to choose you, loving you is kind of pleasure that I surely would never get bored with!!!! I'm so into you, your smile is more beautiful than any gift in this world, your laughter is more cheerful than any bells in this world!!!! And how could I tell you all of this without opening my mouth, dear? How could I show you how much I care, how much I think, how much I want to_____ see you, hear you, be with you!!!!! Having waited in the dark from 5pm to 7.40, be bitten by plenty of insect, including mosquito, my head was like a volcano. The damn fever couldn't keep me from doing this stupid thing. Yeah, it's silly, jus like you said. I managed to scared Mr.R accidentally, I managed to startle and amaze you by changing my look. It was a good job, I could see it in your eyes, the way you gave compliment was like no other. But I accepted it, because it was You!!! No matter what others might talk about me, I don't give it a damn as long as you don't. So what, I can't help myself. Too stuffed, overloaded, wanna scream out what I'm feeling now. Recalled back when you asked me about all of those medication, it showed you care. What's the name, hahah, I can't tell coz it's girl's things. But everything proved. You care for ME!!! And that's all I need~~~ I was joking that I could have caught H1N1 when you instantly asked me why. Yeah, and I was so enthusiastic to put the blame on the poor swimming pool nearby and the cinema, when the actual reason is because of lovesick!!!! Can't you see,you effect on me is just too much to measure!!!! Now I must admit that: I won't let it go!!!! I wouldn't care what others would say, I won't let go, never~~ Even though I will have to stay by the verge like weed, I will stick there. I don't want this moment to end, coz it's just incredibly infinite....
A demain, my commander...
Monday, September 7, 2009
I'm SO into you >>>_____________<<<<
That's is never enough for a girl who is falling in love, jus like me!!!!!
Feel like floating on Cloud Nine, the stream of emotion just keeps flowing that I can't do anything but let it blow me away with an exciting yet subtle wind called KK~~~~
It's just incredible what happened to me from 7.10 to 7.40, only 30 minutes long but I swear it was longer and greater than whatever moment I ever had before. Every second was magical, incredible that would create forever a memorable night for me. He was extremely cute with his smile and his gentle voice, mature and playful at the same time!! Oh gosh, I can't help but dying over HIM!!!!
Everything begins when I quickly moved from my usual place at the bus stop across our skool gate, and to the other side, next to the skool name sign, my secret corner. Then I didn't even expected He would be so amazed that he almost jumped up when I screamed out: "Surprise!!!!" Yayay, finally I managed to startle HIM ^w^!!!! Gabriel Great job!!!! Then we started our conversation and journey of love like that, naturally and beautifully. The evening sky wasn't jet black and the weather was jus nice for a short walk to Toa Payob central.
We talked about so many things. Oh yes, did I mention that we did meet each other somewhere near the tea break before RM class? well, actually it wasn't by chance, I intentionally stepped into the library, after I had stepped out of it just minutes before and went upstair then downstair to find him T__T I was mad, I know, but who cares? That's totally amazing, the moment he saw me, he didn't say anything. Tsk, it's usual though I felt a little bitter, then a moment later he flew me to the moon or even above that when he called me out, owww so sweet: "Gabriel, come!!!" And then we stood outside of the library, that's still considered public area, you know, that means he didn't worry people might think about us. To him, it has been normal for people to find US standing and talking together. Besides, I guess others saw my attention on him lately already, so they wouldn't mind anyway. But it's great!!! He asked me about Coco avant Chanel, he read my mail, and replied immediately!!! See, just can't wait to send back another mail to me =)) =)) How eager!!! Then when I told him i was actually studying in AF, his eyes opened wide, which was so kute : "Oh, so you are studying there already?" Oh My GOD, can't get enough of it, just wanna knock his head cuddle: " Yeah, honey~~" Well, for my sake, I was able to control myself ^o^" Next, I described to him what the class was like, about the lecturer called Benoit. And not to forget mentioned about the poster of Amelie's poster right in front of my eyes, the first thing I noticed when I got down to my seat. Hahah, then he gave out a stream of French, which I had no clue but my pride didn't let me stay blank and dumb. I quickly responsed something back that I couldn't even recall what the hell was that. But that was fantastic in the end~~~~
Back to the story of lovely couple at the evening walk. His phone kept going down, this was so ironic. That gadget has always been in it's lousy condition whenever we walked together, nearly 3 times already. But this time, I'm glad it was!!!!! Coz it brought me a one in a million chances to get him touch my phone. Who on earth could imagine he would ask to borrow my phone?!!!! He wanted to test whether it's the phone or the card that has problem~ But I was so pleased, I lent it at once, without thinking twice, can't ask for more, can I? The moment he held my phone, I could almost feel his hands touched my little shivering heart... Oh my, I must kept talking so that he wouldn't find out I was so happy, I was out of mind, insanely content with his broken phone!!!! That's why I said Sorry to him later, but he didn't know why =b Extremely blown up when he exclaimed
"Haha, luckily, your phone is Samsung so I know how to handle with it"
~Yeah, and I swear Samsung will have another loyal customer after today. I would never trade in this cell under any circumstances for its remarkable value after your touch >>>o<<
But the story didn't stop there. His wife replied back to MY phone, after the msg he sent back home!!!What should I do? Run, go find HIM, quick!!!! And where the hell did my men go? He couldn't walk that fast, could he? I mean, he got long legs but how did he vanished without a trace in a blink? I ran everywhere before I decided to give up and end up in the porridge shop. "Coz according to the msg, His family already finished dinner, by the time he reaches home, he will have had to eat alone...If only we could have dinner together"... That's what occupied my mind thus I didn't really bother about my wrong serving~~~ Don't know when he got home, would his wife scour him, as the msg showed, she's not really a virtuous housewife, or i mistook it? I don't know, I just don't like the way she replied to him:
I just think too much!
ANyway, totally cherished today!!! One of the best moment of the year, or even of my 19 year long life >:)!!!! The most luckiest girl on earth today!!!!
I LIKE YOU, ALOT, mY KK!!!!!
Feel like floating on Cloud Nine, the stream of emotion just keeps flowing that I can't do anything but let it blow me away with an exciting yet subtle wind called KK~~~~
It's just incredible what happened to me from 7.10 to 7.40, only 30 minutes long but I swear it was longer and greater than whatever moment I ever had before. Every second was magical, incredible that would create forever a memorable night for me. He was extremely cute with his smile and his gentle voice, mature and playful at the same time!! Oh gosh, I can't help but dying over HIM!!!!
Everything begins when I quickly moved from my usual place at the bus stop across our skool gate, and to the other side, next to the skool name sign, my secret corner. Then I didn't even expected He would be so amazed that he almost jumped up when I screamed out: "Surprise!!!!" Yayay, finally I managed to startle HIM ^w^!!!! Gabriel Great job!!!! Then we started our conversation and journey of love like that, naturally and beautifully. The evening sky wasn't jet black and the weather was jus nice for a short walk to Toa Payob central.
We talked about so many things. Oh yes, did I mention that we did meet each other somewhere near the tea break before RM class? well, actually it wasn't by chance, I intentionally stepped into the library, after I had stepped out of it just minutes before and went upstair then downstair to find him T__T I was mad, I know, but who cares? That's totally amazing, the moment he saw me, he didn't say anything. Tsk, it's usual though I felt a little bitter, then a moment later he flew me to the moon or even above that when he called me out, owww so sweet: "Gabriel, come!!!" And then we stood outside of the library, that's still considered public area, you know, that means he didn't worry people might think about us. To him, it has been normal for people to find US standing and talking together. Besides, I guess others saw my attention on him lately already, so they wouldn't mind anyway. But it's great!!! He asked me about Coco avant Chanel, he read my mail, and replied immediately!!! See, just can't wait to send back another mail to me =)) =)) How eager!!! Then when I told him i was actually studying in AF, his eyes opened wide, which was so kute : "Oh, so you are studying there already?" Oh My GOD, can't get enough of it, just wanna knock his head cuddle: " Yeah, honey~~" Well, for my sake, I was able to control myself ^o^" Next, I described to him what the class was like, about the lecturer called Benoit. And not to forget mentioned about the poster of Amelie's poster right in front of my eyes, the first thing I noticed when I got down to my seat. Hahah, then he gave out a stream of French, which I had no clue but my pride didn't let me stay blank and dumb. I quickly responsed something back that I couldn't even recall what the hell was that. But that was fantastic in the end~~~~
Back to the story of lovely couple at the evening walk. His phone kept going down, this was so ironic. That gadget has always been in it's lousy condition whenever we walked together, nearly 3 times already. But this time, I'm glad it was!!!!! Coz it brought me a one in a million chances to get him touch my phone. Who on earth could imagine he would ask to borrow my phone?!!!! He wanted to test whether it's the phone or the card that has problem~ But I was so pleased, I lent it at once, without thinking twice, can't ask for more, can I? The moment he held my phone, I could almost feel his hands touched my little shivering heart... Oh my, I must kept talking so that he wouldn't find out I was so happy, I was out of mind, insanely content with his broken phone!!!! That's why I said Sorry to him later, but he didn't know why =b Extremely blown up when he exclaimed
"Haha, luckily, your phone is Samsung so I know how to handle with it"
~Yeah, and I swear Samsung will have another loyal customer after today. I would never trade in this cell under any circumstances for its remarkable value after your touch >>>o<<
... After all, this was the furthest the fairy tale could go, wasn't it?....
But the story didn't stop there. His wife replied back to MY phone, after the msg he sent back home!!!What should I do? Run, go find HIM, quick!!!! And where the hell did my men go? He couldn't walk that fast, could he? I mean, he got long legs but how did he vanished without a trace in a blink? I ran everywhere before I decided to give up and end up in the porridge shop. "Coz according to the msg, His family already finished dinner, by the time he reaches home, he will have had to eat alone...If only we could have dinner together"... That's what occupied my mind thus I didn't really bother about my wrong serving~~~ Don't know when he got home, would his wife scour him, as the msg showed, she's not really a virtuous housewife, or i mistook it? I don't know, I just don't like the way she replied to him:
"u can open ur malaysia line n let it roan, rite?? We all having yi bday dinner now... so wat bout u"U know, it's simply cult. To be frank, I can't feel any love in it, so I felt a bit sad to my dear... Though they were a full house, through his photos, or was I wrong? ....
I just think too much!
ANyway, totally cherished today!!! One of the best moment of the year, or even of my 19 year long life >:)!!!! The most luckiest girl on earth today!!!!
I LIKE YOU, ALOT, mY KK!!!!!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
For the opening of another piece
"You can't create more wealth by dividing the existing wealth"
Can't agree more of this!!!
Can't agree more of this!!!
Came across this great quote while randomly surfing about anti capitalism backlash. Brilliant mind with absolutely right words!!
Milton Friedman stated that an idea of "From each according to his ability, to each according to his need"essentially makes need an asset, and ability a liability. Mostly because ability and liability sound good together
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