a question

What am I thinking?

I mean all of the sudden, he's there in my life, just a bit strong impression, and i'm obsessed with him now >>____<< what the hell is going on? I had always supposed KK the only creature of God I would think about, but Why am I disturbed by another guy, whom I found damn nice, interested, and available. I mean, I was jus about to give up after I thought he got a gf, but darn it,why did he tell me she's a cousin only? Does it have any special meaning, I don't know, but why do I hope it so??? I mean, he's kute, bright face, study well and clever. His achievements are quite a number, and somehow he impressed me with his travel record: all countries in Europe, parts of Asia and AUssie.Oh, c'mon,and now I even find myself stepping into his fb almost every 10 mins, it's too much ado about nothing. The cold just wanders around me for these few days, and it doesn't tend to leave. I'm sickening of it and of myself. Feel like I'm kinda flirtatious, I'm too easy, aint I? I can fall in with any guy? Definitely not, but why I'm having this feeling on him too. When I thought he's taken already, to be honest, my heart sunk a bit, almost breathless. Then when he revealed that it's not true, i felt relieved, lunatic? To a stranger whom I just talked to less than 1hr. And why do we have so many things in common, he stays in Balestier road, great sense of humour, bright smile, and busy. I want to stop this silly feeling, coz I'm sure it's only a crush, but why do I keep thinking about him. The more I look at his photo and his work, the more I admire this guy, such a talented person. I tend to pay special attention on whoever gain my admiration, he's no exception, dear me~~~~ And why why why, this guy make me thinking hard, can't concentrate on anything, even the exam on the way just few more days. C'mon, what should I do? I still like HIM, but this guy gets on the way, and it seems more advisable if I'm with him, not KK... But my head keeps shouting :"Betrayal, why can't u just be loyal to one and only, u should know once u commit to someone, u've got to stick with him.." I know but it's just something I can't explain. He's not really my ideal date anyway, not tall, too slim, long hair, a bit soft, but why?? Is it the way he speaks that attracts me? Is it his idea that pulls me over his table? Is it his kute smile that pushes me to this difficult situation????? someone help me dealing this stupid headache, plzzz. It's just too much for my little head, which is struggling with the fever TT"TT I want to clear up everything, but damn why it all ends up messy and dizzy like this?!!!!!!