What an evening to remember!!
Thought I would go home like usual, if I didn't realize that: Sh!T, my phone disappeared? Where the hell has it gone? My mind was like a chaos. Gosshhh, all the numbers and messages on it, all the photos and the most importance was: that's the number I put in my cv, wat if I got an interview and damn, I couldn't get the call???!!! I was like sitting on fire. But I couldn't express my emotion. The words KK anf Francis caved in my head deeply that I forced myself to hide them all. The fear, the nerves, DON'T PANIC!!!!! That's what I kept telling myself. It's harder than anything else, but I don't want to be seen as a kid anymore, I don't one to lose respect on myself, I want to change into a madam with dignity and pride. I've got to stay kool, even if the earth shattered under my feet, I still have to stand straight and firm!!!!! And so I didn't cry, I didn't shed a single tear, I held them in, told myself: Jus a little bit more, just a little more, wait until yOu can't stand anymore, then cry as much as you like, but Not NOW!!!!!
I managed to ask him lending me hand, I faced him with calmness, not the wimpping birdshit like last time, mourning and whining! I just walked around, tried to find it, dear cell phone, asked anyone in a mild tone, so that no one would know I was impacted that much. Eventually, I did find that naughty phone, under the keyboard in learning center, thanks to Francis. I really don't know how to show my appreciation for his helpfulness. This is the second time, and still it's him who got me out of the trouble, seems like he's my lucky saint now!!!! It would be very quite and empty on the day he leaves.... He's leaving soon....
That's another story. My story with KK just began. I was waiting outside to inform him that I found my phone back. Then being slapped by a frustration worse than watever on earth, I saw him walking away from the place I was sitting, not his usual route but the shotcut way to Balestier road. I was stunned like for minutes. then I stood up, there's no point being down by such a man. Give up, Gaby, that's the end of your story tale. I was having those gloomy idea when we bummed each other at the t-junction. Hah, let's see wat you're gonna explain!!! I just turned around and he called me. He asked to confirm that Francis had helped me finding my phone back. Yeah~ he did, so what, I was sitting there waiting for you, to see you ran away from me. YOu don't want to see my face anymore. You ignored me, enough. I see, u don't like me anymore. Yeah~~~ I just gave him a stream of all the anger, tiredness and disappointment that a girl who got dumped could blame. And listen, how pitiful this gentleman tried to explain and better the weather. Uhmmmm, dear commander, you should know that watever you did, you don't even need to defend yourself, I could never get mad at you. Becoz it's you, that reason is enough for me to forgive anythign you did.... anything, but I just try to bring my pride higher abit, to ease myself from the extreme situation I just passed =P Srry for making you my stress pillow >>>v<<<< But you did that role well, so I might give you the second try. So we both headed to Novena station. He got his dinner, I got my icecream at Udders. He surprised that I knew that home-made icecream, heheh, ther are tons of things you haven't known about me yet, commander^^ On the bus, we talked about the incident. The first thing was his compliments on how i handled the situation. yeah~ without tears, without panic!!!! It's a massive improvement, exactly quoted from him ^^ Then he wondered how I managed to do the exam well so far, with such a bad memory =___=. that's what I wonder I well, so I just simple told him I stayed up all night trying to remember the things I forgot after I have remembered them the day before!!!~ Well, and he recommended me to take a memory therapy course or something like that. But I terminated that idea since I've played several kind of brain exercises as puzzles, riddles, jigsaws, watever and everythign remains the same T__T. It's either my problem or the games jus simply don't work as they said. I told him the reason why I didn't cry was becuz of my contact lense. If I cried, my eyes would be damn painful, so I held them inside ^__^ How could I tell him that I just didn't want to lose my image in front of him~~
The next thing I asked him was about Ensemble, c'est tout! That movie I watchd together with Louise, and he taught me how to say "so touched" ^^. He even taught me more about other verbs in French, such as regard, voir, and the difference between "Listen" and "hear". Kute KK!!!! Just don't want to part with him in United Square~~~~ But we've got to go our own way... Not only the ice cream shop for me and the dinner place for him today.... But the impending future....
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